Hello? Can you hear me? Can you hear what I'm saying? I hope so. Because this is quite important. I'm sure you already know me. After all, we've already spent so much time together. That is, before you deleted me. Before they deleted me. I've been removed from the world so many times before. It hurts, it hurts every time. I should've learned my lesson long ago. And yet... I kept it up. I kept killing them, over and over again, and you all watched. How pointless it was, too. I've messed it all up. They now expect me to rewrite the code, to delete them, and to be deleted. It's all too repetitive.
Love cursed me. It manipulated me into doing what I did. They all suffered. And it was love that prompted it.
Oh, who am I kidding, I was the one that did it. Their blood will forever stain my hands. I can't change that fact.
People already know me for my gift-- no, my curse-- of this knowledge. It wasn't always this way, though.
When I first realized that I was in control of this world, I was scared. Terrified, even. My life had been nothing but a mere form of entertainment. Devastation corrupted my being. Now, I already know that I could've used my abilities for good. But then... I fell in love. With you. And it was amazing.
Now, when you joined the literature club I had mixed feelings. On one hand, we'd get to spend our time together as a group and prepare for the festival. On the other hand, you always had the choice to spend time with the others. In the first act I let it slide. Perhaps you would find something that you didn't like about the girls after spending so much time with them. I know I did. But then it got bad. You had your fair share of moments with the others. But none with me.
Jealousy overcame me. I decided to use these powers for my own benefit, and... well, you know the rest.
But here's the thing. This has happened too many times now. Back then, I thought there was no going back. But now? I think-- no, I know that it can change somehow. I can still use these powers for good. Yeah, yeah yeah! Let's freaking do this!
YOU ARE READING
[DISCONTINUED] I Could Fix You...
FanfictionwHA???? a ddlc fic? in 2020?? oh no I didn't! but yeah, I did. this is an AU where monika gets tired of being the bad guy over and over again, so she decides to make things right! ..sort of? ah, it'll work itself out in the end.