I choose life

Playing pretend

I was late... perfect.

I raced up the road and pulled quickly up the hill into the school parking lot, from what I could see the lot was full, i did a few laps and still had no luck but just as I was about to give up and park on the side walk I spotted a small space in between a huge white jeep and a shiny silver Volvo I made my way over to the small space and expertly swung round and backed into the space, leaving a few feet in between me and the other cars.
Even though they were only a bribe to keep quiet I took great pride in my cars so I would be furious if my paint job got scratched from kids carelessly swinging their doors open onto my Car. As soon as I pulled in my car growled turning the few people left in the lot to all look at me weirdly, a car like this wasn't the normality in a town like forks. I looked at my face briefly in the mirror, nodded with satisfaction and carefully swung open my door and jumped out, wincing slightly at the pain in my left thigh as I made Impact with the hard concrete.
By the time I had gathered all my stuff the last remaining teens had made their way over to the cafeteria and were standing around the door.

I walked up to the entrance, ignoring the stares on my way and pushed through the doors revealing a huge brightly lit cafeteria with dozens of tables dotted randomly around the room, I scanned all the full tables looking for my friends and finally found them in the centre of the cafeteria all chatting and laughing away. I instinctively started to walk over there but then remembered they wanted nothing to do with me after I didn't turn up, if only they knew the truth. Embarrassed I quickly pivoted away, my bag swinging and hitting me in the side, I let out a little groan as my hard laptop made impact with my bruised ribs, quickly recovering I scanned the room looking for another empty table but made no progress. I was walking away from the general population of students when someone grabbed me and spun me round embracing me in a tight hug. It took me a moment it realise who it was but as soon as I did I hugged her back just as eagerly ignoring the cries of pain my body made. It was Angela... I was severely confused, I pulled back a few inches to stare at her gorgeous face in shock, but before i could speak she pulled me back and said "I'm so sorry Bella whatever your reason was I'm sure it was good enough not to come out, I love you Bells and you can always talk to me", I felt a instant wave of calm and warmth as she said those words, she really was my best friend and it hurt me to think that I couldn't tell her what was really going on, but I ignored that voice in my head and buried my face into her jet black hair and whispered " I'm so sorry I love you", responding to my words she hugged me even tighter and we swayed back and forth like this for a few moments until she pulled back fully revealing her beautiful face.

Angela could easily be a model, she had gorgeous black hair which fell in natural ringlets down to her waist, she has large feline like eyes which were filled with a gorgeous shiny blue colour and had incredible pinky plump lips. We exchanged a few more words then she eagerly pulled me towards the middle table, as soon as we reached the table Mike Eric and Jess had already started to eagerly say hello and ask me all sorts of questions about my summer, I exchanged hugs with my friends and they all sat back down getting back to their conversations, from the corner of my eye I could see Lauren, who had the personality of a sworm of bees but she easily masks that with her beauty and 'charm', I heard her mumble something like "here comes Miss I have a perfect life", I rolled my eyes and spoke back to her internally, "oh Lauren if only you knew, no one would want to be me". Lauren, towards the end of last year, started to tag along with our group and we let her but deep down everyone knows she just doing it because she craves attention and where else to gain attention other than by 'befriending' the popular group, she was already doing a royally good job at pissing me off. It's like she knew I was hiding something and she was trying to reach inside and get pull it out.
I guess I was good at pretending about my life, I blended in with my friends quite well because before all the abuse started everyone's assumptions about my life were true. I thought it was perfect, I was the rich happy girl who got everything she wanted but I was still know for having a great personality. I guess that is still true it's only my mind set that has changed. But personally I believe that for all the mental abuse that I have received I have kept myself together quite well. I know that falling apart and letting Charlie really get to me would do more harm then necessary, so decided I would be strong, and so far I'm doing ok.

For the remaining hour of lunch I engaged in easy conversations with everyone and discussed some future plans to go into Seattle with Angela, I quickly excused myself to go get an apple from the salad canteen when I turned back around that's when I first saw them...