𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐄𝐘𝐄𝐒 , mairi

chapter 08

"hey guys! meet cynthia!" the boys' head turn to face mattia with a random girl. kairi forced a smile, even though it was hurting a little inside. it was dumb, he was dumb, he hated this. mattia sat beside kairi with his dumb girlfriend sitting on his dumb lap, kairi rolled his eyes and scrolled through tiktok to avoid any sort of social interaction with anyone at the moment.

alvaro noticed how quiet kairi had gotten, he frowned, he wasn't dumb, he noticed the change in kairi's behavior. he sighed and tapped on his thigh, kairi looked up at the boy. "are you okay?" he looked at alvaro for a second, debating whether or not he'll actually tell him what's going on with him.

"yeah i'm cool don't worry." kairi smiles and shrugged it off, which he shouldn't have done since it's gonna get a little harder to cope with. he glanced at mattia who was currently looking back at him with a stern face. kairi then again smiles at mattia and went back to scrolling through shitty tiktok videos. kairi had an itchy feeling about this girl. she didn't look that amused to be here, talking to mattia's friends and mattia in general. she was staring daggers at the wasian boy, he made eye contact with the girl and shrugged it off.

"what's wrong?" kairi hears mattia ask the cunt on his lap, which kairi would die for to be on. he bit his lip, knowing he and mattia would never being a thing since mattia was as straight as a pole. plus, it's not cool to force your sexuality on someone. "oh nothing..." the small boy rolls his eyes hearing the straight bitch talk, he knew what she was doing.

mattia just replied with a simple okay and continued talking in the conversation, miss cynthia did not look happy. she had an attitude on for sure, not kairi's girl, not his problem.

hopeless. that's what kairi was. that's what he was, watching cynthia drag mattia to the nearby restroom. he laughed along with the other boys but he was a little choked up. kairi wasn't as hurt as he imagined to be, he thought he'd start bawling his eyes out the minute he saw them together but no, he was fine. mattia was never kari's anyway, he laughed.

kairi groaned, it was finally the last subject, he'd finally ignore all of his angsty problems and never deal with it. he made his way to his locker and grabbed the needed books, he starts walking to class, thinking about mattia. he kinda missed him, like his presence in general. he missed seeing mattia smile, laugh and talk. now he's just out in the wild with cynthia fucking parker who he wished he was.

kairi enters the room, realizing he and mattia shared the last subject, he mentally groaned. he sits at the very end of the classroom and rested his head on his arms and tried to hide himself from the italian. sadly, the younger ended up sitting beside him, mattia shook the smaller boy, kairi pretended to be asleep.

he did it for two reasons. one, he didn't want to confront his bestfriend. everytime he looked at mattia, he didn't feel the same anymore. he felt scared, like his stomach was eating him alive and it wasn't in a good way. he felt ashamed for liking his bestfriend. it sucked for the confused boy.

and two, he wanted attention from mattia, childish but at least kairi could admit it. mattia was busy simping over cunt-hia all day he forgot about kairi, it made kairi feel worse and tired, he had it coming.

"kairiiii." mattia repeatedly poked kairi's side, causing him to flinch. "jesus fuck, what do you want mattia?" kairi's voice was hoarse and raspy, he sounded sick. mattia switched up, he immediately placed a hand on kairi's forehead which was currentl very warm.

"kairi, you're hot."

"wha- wha-"

"i mean you are quite hot— but like you're burning up, let's take you to the nurse's office." kairi shook his head, mattia was probably overreacting. "what? no, it's the last subject anyways i'll sleep it off soon." mattia rolled his eyes, he hates it when kairi does this.

mattia hates it everytime kairi puts himself at the end of everything. one time, kairi was bleeding the fuck out of his leg since he fell off a tree and scrapped his knee on a sharp rock, but he still attended alejandro's birthday. mattia hated it so much, kairi was selfless.

"but you're—"

"i'll be fine! down worry mattia." with that mattia sighed and gave up, he didn't want to push the older boy. he didn't want to cause another problem, they already made up two weeks ago another problem won't help anything.

mattia just watched the older boy sleep peacefully in his desk the entire period, worrying.

author's note:
unedited lol i was half awake while writing this so if u see an error just dont❤️ anyways i'm trying SO HARD to update rn i SWEAR THIS AINT EASY, anyways BLACK LIVES MATTER, SAVE YEMEN, NO MORE STOLEN SISTERS, PROTECT ASIANS AND MIDDLE EASTERNS!! BYE LOVE U