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Next day I woke up with a heavy head. It was all spinning, I don't even remember what I saw in my dream or did I even dream? Did I even sleep?

I was not in the mood of going to college, and yeah, a fun day at home is far better.

I checked my phone there was no notification, "huh, is he trying to play with me?" And most of the above why did we do that? He has a girlfriend right? Or does he have other girls as well? Ahh let it be , he probably won't remember anything maybe he was drunk? But wait why did I continued it ahhh I'm mad. I even shouted his name while cumming , he won't think much right? "I don't want him to know that I love him."

Half of the day went chilling, I was alone in the house and I had my time and fun. Mom and dad went office and Jeun went college hahah it's fun being all alone in the house.

I received a message from Jimin saying, "hey taehyungaaa , we're planning to go on a five-day trip outside of the state, and yeah, my dad will take care of our accommodation and tour. You'll just need to pay for going and coming back. And yeah, with me, you don't have to think much so say what are your thoughts?"

Hmmm it's gonna be fun and I could have a little time for myself in all this.
Dad will allow but the biggest task is Mom. Ahh it's so difficult to convince mom but I guess now she won't say anything. I'm an adult so yeah.

Mom came home around 5 and Jeun said she wanted to do some shopping so she went to the mall sneakingly.

"Hi Mom how was the day?"

"Ahh it was fine not much of a load."

"Good "I was making some tea for her while she was changing in her room. I decided to talk with her after she comes back.

"Mom I wanted to ask something?" I said, giving her tea.

"Yeah Taehyung what's it?"

"Me and my friends are planning to go on a trip outside the states and Jimin said his dad will take care of our accommodation. So can I go with them?" I asked a little hesitant.

"Ahh taebaby it's not the right time to go ."

"But why mom?"

"You know very well that Jeun is now a part of the family and me and your dad are always busy in the office so we can't let her live alone in the house."

"But what about that time when I went to Jimin when he was injured?"

"That was emergency Taehyung and that time I had early leaves so it was possible for me to come home early and till that time she went college."

"But mom why now?"

"You know very well that you guys are going to have holidays now and then obviously she'll stay at home but we can't let her stay alone in the house. What if something happens?"

"But mom I also lived alone for so many years then why can she for a few days?"

"Tae it's not the same , it's new for her you should understand that."

"Waahhh is she some kid that we have to take care of her and moreover why are you putting her on me ? Am I some bodyguard?"

"Tae think before you say something she is your sister!" She shouted on me.

"So because of this little thing I can't go the trip , just because she can't stay alone in the house."

"Yes and you have to cooperate."

"No mom this is not fair, why I have to compromise my happiness because of her? And why are you doing this ?", I started having tears in my eyes.

"Stop crying you can't go and sometimes you have to compromise that's life."

"No mom in my whole life I'll never compromise, it's my happiness and I'll never let it go for someone else."

"Then we are fools right ? What we are doing for you is nothing? We never gave you happiness right? You can't think what we have to answer to her parents if something happens to her? She is our responsibility, at least think that?"

"But..... Ahhh I don't know anymore and why are you saying that you never gave me happiness? But this is not right mom, I feel controlled, and she doesn't even know this? I have to stay with her , keep eyes on her , I had to give my room, I can't call my friends over , I can't stay outside for long, if she is going somewhere then I have to tag along, why? Just because of her safety and security ? I know it's important but then what about me ? Why can't I be selfish? Is it wrong to think for myself?"

She was silenced for a while, "you're thinking so much Taehyung and I don't wanna argue on this anymore."

I was fuming with anger as I clenched my fist on this and straight away went in my room.

I started crying fisting my pillows and burying my face in them to shut my shouts and high volumed crying. I was getting insane , my eyes were not stopping from dripping and the pillow started to become wet due to my crying.

"This is not done just because of this I can't go on a trip just because of this ahhhhhh."

I hate it when my anger turns into tears and sob. I can't do anything in these situations, I feel like hitting someone, I feel like hitting myself. The anger when something not goes your way and that feeling when you can't do anything but to follow what others say is just unexplainable. I never experienced something like this. Everything is happening because of her and she doesn't even know ahhh I can't even blame her .