Trapped In Love

Forever

Wayo POV

 I looked at Phi Forth and Phi Beam.  They look so happy.  They have gone through a lot to get to this day.  Their wedding day.  The whole of Thailand was in an uproar by them.  Many blasphemed but many also supported them.  And phi beams are truly amazing people.  He responds to all negative comments with his unique smile and behavior.  

 "They are just jealous because I got what they couldn't," he said when he looked annoyed at his social media comment section.  He even more aggressively spit his intimate photos with Phi Forth to social media.

 And I like how Phi Forth protects Phi Beam.  He is always on the side of phi Beam.  Placing his hand gently on Phi Beam's back every time he talks to anyone.  Shows how much support it has on Phi Beam.  He also always looked at the phi beam full of tenderness.  They are truly a perfect match.

 I remember the first time when Phi forth said that he found someone who could make his heart beat violently.  At first I did not believe it.  Phi Forth is not the type to be in a relationship.  He struggled to change partners like he changed shoes.  But after six months without sleeping with anyone and he continued to chase the same person, I realized he was serious.

 "Fuck ... sorry !!"  Said someone who suddenly spilled his drink on my shoulder.  I stood and looked at the tall and handsome man in front of me.  He looked drunk and wiped my suit with a napkin in his hand.

 "Sorry ... I didn't see," he said.  I smile

 "It's okay," I said, pushing his hand "But Phi Pha, you don't look well" I said worriedly.  He looks disheveled and messy.  And I can smell the aroma of thick wine from his body.

 "Phi is fine ... Hahaha ... Very fine," he said but I could see his injured expression.

 I shook my head and pushed him to sit.  He looked at me confused.

 "Does Phi want to go home?I can take Phi home," I offered.  He looked at me for a moment before he smiled with his sad eyes.  

 "Phi doesn't want to go home. Phi doesn't want to feel lonely," he said weakly.  He must be drunk.  The Phi Pha that I know is a person who has high self-esteem.  He wouldn't want to look weak like he is now.

 "Then You will accompany Phi Pha," I offered.  He looked at me intently then laughed.

 "Aw ... you're so sweet Nong. But no thanks," he said, standing up and pushing my body.  He walked away from me.

 "Why? Because compared to Phi Beam, Yo is nothing?"  finally I issued my guts.  Phi Phana turned around and looked into my eyes.  He was silent.

 "If only Phi Pha wants to open a few eyes, then Phi can see that Phi is not alone. Many care for Phi," I added.  Phi Phana is still staring at me.  He laughed as he walked closer to me.  Our height difference makes me feel intimidated.  But the smile on his face makes me feel safe.

 "What do you mean?"  he asked confused.

 I swallowed.  Now is not the time to retreat.  I have promised myself, If the Phi forth relationship is successful then I will pursue Phi Pha.

 "Yo likes Phi Pha. If Phi Pha wants, Yo doesn't mind being a substitute for Phi Beam," I said.  Phi Phana looked at me in surprise.  Then he laughed and pushed my head with his index finger.

 "Nothing can replace Beam," he said.  I'm speechless.  Of course when compared to a phi beam I have nothing.  

 "Nothing can make me suffer like it. Even if I have to take care of three people like you, the suffering I experience will not be comparable to taking care of a beam," he looked down at me.  I bite my lower lip and hold my left chest that hurts.  Of course he will reject me outright.  I tried to hold back my tears that were about to fall.