Summary: Phil writes a letter to Dan after Dan left him for another man (angest,fluff)
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Dear Dan,
If I said I didn't miss you i would be lying. I think about you every morning,afternoon and night you never leave my mind. The flat feels empty without you, I have no one to eat and watch anime with in the mornings. Its not like I get out of bed anyway. I hope he is treating you well. He as in the man you left me all alone to be with. I hope he wakes you up with kisses like I used to, I hope he cuddles with you when you are scared like I used to. I hope he treats you like a king like I used to. I hope he loves you non stop and gives you everything that you ever wanted like I used to. I hope you are happy and have forgotten all about me god knows I haven't. I also hope you know that you left me in tears and with a broken heart, my heart is still broken. I feel as though the moment you walked through the door my life stopped. I never leave the flat anymore. I haven't seen any of our friends since you left, they tried contacting me but I changed my number because they all remind me of you. I don't know if you noticed but I haven't made videos since you left, my fans are worried. They think I am dead or something,they are not far off from the truth. I honestly feel as though everyone would be fine if I was dead. Dan you were my life I loved you so much but then you left. Left me here on my own. I wish you never met him and then maybe we would still be in love. Once when I went out to Starbucks I saw you two together. You seemed really in love, you look at him like you once looked at me. I sit by the door now waiting for you to come home but you never do. Its supposed to be Dan and Phil not just Phil. I cant continue writing this letter because every word I write is like a knife being stabbed into me. i love you Dan. I hope you are happy. I don't think I can take this world alone. You broke me. But I still love you. I hope you understand that i will never stop loving you. You were the love of my life and now my life is gone.
Love,
Phil Lester (someone you used to love)
Dan's POV
I re-read the letter over 20x. I felt tears come to my eyes, how could i be so stupid i never loved James (the man i left Phil for) I have always loved Phil. Phil is my one and only and he is the one I want to hold at night. He is the one I want to kiss and give all my love to. I left the letter on the bed and ran to the lounge to tell James my true feelings.
"James we need to talk" I said with I shaky but with a somewhat confident voice
"Let me guess you are still in love with Phil and want to get back together with him" James said in nonchalant tone
"h-o-www did you know" I said utterly confused on how he knew. Maybe he is a mine reader. no shut up brain he is not.
"When we saw him in Starbucks I saw you look at him as he left and you had this look in your eyes, this look like he was your entire world" Jame's said with a sad tint to his voice.
"That's because he is my world" I said as I ran to get my jacket and go over to my old flat.
-Time skip because I don't have time to write how he got there-
When i got to out old flat i pulled out my old key, luckily it still fit. When I opened the door I slowly climbed up the stairs and there was no Phil to be found. I quietly walked up towards my old room to find him lying in a ball crying on top of my old bed.
"Phil" i said quietly
"dd-a-nn?" Phil said as he looked up with a very confused face
"I read you letter and then realized that I still love you and never want to live a single day without you. And that you are in fact the love of my life and I hope you can forgive me for leaving you" I spoke quickly trying to say everything i felt in a sentence.
"I never stopped loving you of course I can forgive you" Phil said as he stood up and walked over to me engulfing me in huge bear hug
I took my hand and lifted his chin to face me and then i slowly planted a soft but passionate kiss on his plump pink lips. Warmth took over my body as I felt his body melt into me as he kissed back.
We spent the rest of the day cuddelded up watching American horror story. Everything felt right again.
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Authors note: I am so sorry i was gone for so long: ( Also i am sorry this chapter is absoulute shit. But thank you to anyone who is reading this. Also please feel free to send prompts i would love to write them for you :)
