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You're long gone for another night
Haven't heard from me in a while
That one mistake that looks like a felony
I should've treated you better
Reminiscing doesn't matter
Right now, I can't stutter an apology

I haven't been sleeping for days
Moved on too fast for your taste
You complained that I don't communicate
Well, I can't say I don't understand
And you were in that hospital bed
Believe me, I remember it very well
I was never one to give any respect

I feel like my heart is burning in my chest
And the blood flowing up to my head
I can't stop the tears from falling again
Should I call you from another caller?
Would you ever read it as a text?
I'm not sure if I'd go back to your door
But I needed something to write about
Eyeliner tears smearing my pretty dress

Fuck, I'm sorry, okay?
In that moment, I intended no pain
But I caused it anyway
I won't say it wasn't my fault
But everybody told me so
I'm glad I did it before
Asking you to sell your soul

Phone calls don't mend broken hearts
And I won't cross the bridge to tell you off
Let's just make it an open letter then
The last time we talked, it was a fight
What was I supposed to say?
You clearly predicted what I did
Neither of us could say it face to face
And I understand your rage
But if I'm being honest
I truly don't give a shit

I feel like my heart is burning in my chest
All the blood flowing up to my head
I can't stop the tears from falling again
Should I call you from another number?
Would you ever read it as a text?
I'm not sure if I'd go back to your door
But I needed something to write about
Eyeliner tears smearing my pretty dress

You never had me the way you expected
One weekend at my place was enough
My family isn't the one with good manners
They hate you when you do nothing wrong
I was ready to drive us off the road
Before it all got worse
And I did it, and I do not regret
I don't regret anything that I do for myself

I didn't behave the way I should
I was mean to you when I didn't need to
And I take responsibility for my deadlines
I can't tell you this, even if I wanted to
What else did you want me to do?
You got infected with my hopelessness

I feel like my heart is burning in my chest
All the blood flowing up to my head
I can't stop the tears from falling again
Should I call you from another number?
Would you ever read it as a text?
I'm not sure if I'd go back to your door
But I needed something to write about
Eyeliner tears smearing my pretty dress