𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚒 𝚑𝚊𝚝𝚎 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞 || rini au

love song

ricky's pov

i'm sitting here in physics, trying to listen to mr. mazzara teach us about something stupid we'll never ever use in real life. i know that i definitely shouldn't, but i kind of feel bad about what i said to nini. i just feel bad for her. nothing else. i lean my head the slightest bit to the right to look at her a few seats in front of me. as always, she's doodling little stars and hearts on her paper instead of paying attention. should i apologize? i hate apologizing--almost as much as i hate nini--but for some reason i feel like i need to. it's the right thing to do. right?

"nini!" i say, catching up to her as she makes her way out of the classroom when the bell rings.

"what, ricky?" she sighs.

"i'm sorry about what happened earlier," i tell her. it's so hard to do, but i manage to let the words escape my mouth.

"it's fine."

"are you sure? because what happened back ther-"

"i tried to have a mature conversation with you, you acted like a punk, what else is there to talk about?" she snaps. suddenly, i don't feel bad for her anymore.

"ugh. forget it, you're not worth an apology from me anyway."

"oh really? is that why you told e.j caswell to never touch or talk to me again? what was that about?!" how does she know about that? he didn't tell her, did he? shit. of course he did.

"it was the right thing to do, nini! i saw what he did, and felt like i needed to."

"next time i need your help, i'll ask," she says as she storms away for the second time. fine. i do one nice thing for her and it still blows up in my face!

nini's pov

"it's because he knows i'm right!" i sigh out in frustration. kourt, seb, and i are back in my bedroom for our usual study session, but i'm using the time to continue my rant.

"why do you care so much? i mean, i get why the kiss was a big deal, but about ricky? with the list and everything-" i cut seb off with a death glare.

"anyways, neeners, it was a just a stupid kiss. you need to move on," kourtney tells me.

"i can't move on! because it won't get out of my head! it's just constantly there, replaying itself, and i can't think about anything else, and he won't even elaborate why it happened!"

ding!

what do you know, it's e.j caswell. just what i need right now.

"who's that?" seb says suggestively.

"e.j," i sigh. their jaws practically drop to the floor.

"WHAT?!"

"you got e.j caswell's number and you didn't tell us?!" it's true, i didn't. because i knew if i did, then i would have to act ecstatic about it. and i don't know if i am.

"he asked for my number, and we've just been chatting for a bit. but that's not the point! we're talking about ricky-"

"enough about ricky, nins! you need to forget about him and that kiss in general! you're way too good for him!" kourt interrupts.

"she's right. and besides, you've got e. j caswell going after you now!" seb adds. it's not like i'm not happy to finally have a chance with him, it's just...you know. i can't get over what he did at his party. or maybe i can? i don't know. at least i know that e.j isn't six flags, which i don't know how to feel about.

"no, you know what nini? you need a break from boys. we're taking you prom dress shopping ASAP!"

ricky's pov

"why are you still up my ass about chicago?!"

"because you up and left for a week, lynne! we have a son!"

"maybe i wouldn't have left if it wasn't always a fight with you!"

"no, because if we don't fight we don't talk!!"

"i try to talk to you all the time! you know, todd-"

"ah yes, nothing says conversation quite like leaving your family for a week unannounced!"

"you know what, mike?! i'd do it again!"

that's it! i can't be here anymore. i just got home and they're still going at it. why can't they just stop talking to each other? they're obviously not gonna solve anything with just the two of them. i quickly run down the stairs and grab my skateboard as i'm rushing out the door. i'm gone before they can ask me where i'll be. i feel the tears start to run down my face as i skate to red's, but i wipe them away before anyone can see them. like i said, love's not real. it's just like, a chemical reaction or something. i don't know, i don't pay attention in mr. mazzara's class. with everything going on today, i really just need to hang out with someone and forget about it all. just as i'm entering his house, i get a message from none other than schtewpid. i could use a pick-me-up right now, so i text her back immediately.

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unknown

hi!

hey!

im bored

bored?

hm i thought we weren't telling each other who we were

do not clap at me rn

i will clap back

rough day?

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if only she knew. i really just want to rant to her and tell her everything, but i'm already at red's.

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unknown

really rough

same here :(

i'm always here if you need to talk

even if i don't know you

how do i know you aren't secretly mr. mazzara or something?

HAHAHA

i PROMISE im not mr. mazzara

although i'm pretty sure i saw him filling out a form..

two words

nightmare fuel