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i feel like i'm gonna end up pushing her away,
i wouldn't mean to but if i don't get my shit together i will.

my spirit went from wishing i'd have her on a weekend away, with reckless sex & wine intoxicating us as we get lost in the night,
to wishing i don't say the wrong things to her.

lately, i find myself doing that a lot.

i wonder how long it'll take for me to unleash whatever she suppresses whenever we have slight disagreements.

i wonder how long it'll take.

i thought i was ready to deal with a girl i have feelings for, i wonder what changed in the last few weeks.
i wonder where i went wrong.

i wonder where i took the wrong offramp when we couldn't workout romantically.
though, i'm still of utter gratitude for her presence.
i love her!

perhaps, i'm scared of losing her ‘cause it's been a very long time since i opened my heart up like this.
somebody tell me where i went wrong,
‘cause i cannot lose her, i mustn't

i cannot afford to.