"You're my dream, but you let me fade away..." -Son Chaeyoung
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"Give me reasons why you like me" -Mina
How the hell can I do that?! I can't even think of one! , Chaeyoung said to her self before answering Mina with a question "Why?"
"So we can al...
I flinch when my roommate opened the door- she looks like someone who's about to have a fight. She walks to my bed- where I was sitting and listening to music
"Come with me, we're going to the club"
"But I don't go to the club"
"It's weekend, we don't have class tomorrow... Let's have fun"
I was about to protest but she drag me out already.
We went to the nearest club- music was like 1000% of volume and people were hyping on the dance floor.
"It's so loud in here" I shouted at her ear
"This is a club, what do you expect?"
We went to a table and she offers me some drink. This doesn't taste good but me being me- I drank every glass she gave. I don't know if it's just me or the place was really shaking? Bea left me to get another drink.. I was just looking around, checking out the place... Lights go on and off and people are vibin with the loud sound, everyone is wild... my head hurts already... I was trying to stand straight when I saw a woman...
She has a short hair...
White skin...
Pinkish lips...
She reminds me of her...
And that's when I started crying...
I don't know why, I just cry and I can't help it.
"Chaeyoung!" Bea called out my name and rush towards me "Why are you crying?" She worriedly asked
"I miss her..."
I hug her and I felt her hug me back "Stop losing yourself child.... Stop holding back"
We walked out of the bar and went to the nearest diner, she bought me a coffee and calm me down.
"Is it still about that girl on your paintings" I didn't respond, I just cry "It is true that love is painful, but it's also true that it's beautiful... Kid, there's a lot of decision we have done in life where we never thought of why we choose at all... It is true that we can never change what was have done, that's why we make up for it"
Her words snatch my attention "But that's not love's supposed to be, right?"
"Love? Who knows about love? No one can define it... You can find a formula to any mathematical problems but you can never define love... There's a lot of things that happened to us and we didn't even know that it's love, because we can never know what love is... We can never define it... Not even by experience, not by anything at all..."
"I was hurt..."
"I know... I can see it... But neither pain can define love" She gave me a meaningful smile "Let me guess, you went here not just to study, right?" She let out a soft laugh "Sometimes love is a long time coming, and if that happens... You'll know it has no ending"
"I wanted to unlove her"
"The girl on your paintings, is that the one you were referring to?" I nodded "You know, we can never really unlove someone, it's either you don't love that person in the first place or you found someone better"
"Were you looking forward to unlove your stepsister?"
She shook her head "No... Cause she will always be here" She tap her chest "Always... Just like you to that girl... You can never unlove her, especially if it's too obvious that you don't want to"
Her worlds reach the deepest part of my mind... The part where I was hidden every memory of Mina...
Her gummy smile... Her fluffy cheeks when she laugh...
The very first time I laid my eyes on her, until the last time I see her in the airport before I left...
Those memories that I want to erase but never left.
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Someone opened the door- It's my roommate, she throw her bag on her bed then she lay herself in there. I remember that someone delivered a package while she's on her class.
"Hey Bea! You have a package from Philippines."
She sit on her bed "Package?"
I walk towards her and give her the box "Someone delivered that here. Open it; I'm so keen to see what's inside."
She opened the box, and there's a blue rose- she took it while I pick the letter
"What's this?!" I ask while I was trying to read the letter
She snatch it from my hand and she laugh at me, the letter was written in another language- So I can't read it.
"What's in the letter?" I ask when she fold the paper
"None of your business."
"You're so mean!"
"No I'm not, you're just annoying."
"Whatever!" I went back to my table and continue doing my homework "Is that from your step sister again?"
"Yeah" Bea has a story to tell, and I am still learning from her everyday "I'm telling you Chaeng, nobody waits forever" She stood and walk to her desk, she took something in there and lend it to me- it's a fountain pen "Write for her"
"What?"
"The girl on your painting, that Mina you were saying... Write for her"
"Why would I do that?"
"Well unlike me, you have a choice in life... And I really envy you for that. You've been here for almost a year- I already saw your parents, you're talking to them most of the time... But I haven't seen you with your old friends"
And all of a sudden, I felt guilty about that...
It's true, I haven't talk to them ever since I went here...
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AN: I also wrote a story about SaTzu with MiChaeng, 2yeon, and JenLisa
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