In the Name of Order

Chapter 17: MATHEA'S DIARY ENTRIES

MATHEA'S DIARY ENTIRES

09/06/'29

Willow fainted today. I got home from Dawn's house and found her on the floor just outside our room. My mum was busy working, so I found my dad in one of the lounges and told him about her. I don't know how he understood a word I was saying, but as soon as Willow's name came out of my mouth, dad rushed to where she was and told me not to worry.

He also told me not to say anything to mum, but when she saw me all shaken up, I told her everything. I think my parents had a fight that day, but they weren't mad at me.

Dad called a doctor to the house, and they ran a couple tests on Willow. I did some homework until my sister woke up, and when she finally did, I don't think she remembered anything.

I told my dad that Willow didn't seem okay. How could she not remember passing out? She acted like nothing happened, but dad said I shouldn't worry though. He said the doctor got back to him and everything would be okay.

Dad also told me I shouldn't say anything to Willow about this, because something can trigger in her. I'll definitely keep my mouth shut, because I'm not going to be the one who makes her faint again or anything worse.

17/06/'29

Willow and Kane are so adorable! Nothing special happened, but I just noticed how comfortable they are with each other. All my friends say they should just get together, but I don't know how I feel about that. I mean, if anyone comes close enough to deserving Wills then it would be Kane, but I can't see them as anything more than what they are. You know?

30/06/'29

I saw Willow in our room today, but I don't think she noticed I was there. She should've seen me, but she looked in my direction as if she didn't. Willow had her hands gripping her head, and she just looked hurt. I walked closer to her to try and comfort her, but I got really scared when I came close enough to touch her and she never seemed to notice I was there.

I don't know, maybe whatever pain is hurting her is so intense that she can't focus on anything else. I told dad about this. He said I should leave Willow, and he'll get it sorted out. I told mum about this too, and she told me the same thing.

I don't think mum and dad agree on how to help Willow, because I heard them fight about her. I don't really care how they try and help her, but I think they need to help faster than they're trying right now.

02/10/'29

I know I shouldn't have done it, but my eyes can't help what they see! House-ma B had some files in her hand today. I only saw a glimpse of it, but it mentioned Willow going on a mission. I think this is exactly what my sister needs. Maybe she'll be more motivated to train if she knows she's going on a mission soon? So that's why I had to make sure she saw House-ma B's files.

When our house-ma went on her lunch break, I found Willow's mission assignment and left it on House-ma B's table! Then I told Willow that I think she left her favourite jacket in that office. Obviously, Willow didn't. I just stole Willow's jacket and left it there. It wasn't the worst lie I have come up with. Willow and House-ma B alwaysss spend time together. It's weird really.

Anyway, I know Willow won't be able to help herself; she'll look at those files and find out about her mission. I think Willow will be excited when she sees it. She hasn't had a mission in some time now. I just hope Willow isn't faking anything just because she hates this program. Will the docs be able to pick that up?

02/12/'29

I heard Aunt Ankah talking to Granddad on the phone the other day. I couldn't even pick up this diary for some time. I wish I never heard what I did. How can Granddad do this?

14/01/'30

Dad pulled me out of school this morning. I wasn't too happy about that, because I just got news about Willow's new treatment. My mum came to see me like right after some people came to take Willow. She said that Willow will be going through a lot and that I need to be there for her. Her treatment started today, and dad decides it's best to take me out of school.

I complained during the whole car ride, but dad mostly ignored me. Anyway, we ended up at some house near the lake. I met this cute guy there, but that isn't the point.

I sat through hours of explanations about my sister's condition. I mean, couldn't they have just written it down?

Anyway, I don't want to say to much (my hand will probably hurt if I try write it all), but I'm basically going to be Willow's hero. Honestly, I don't know how I'll be able to pull this off, but I definitely have to try before her only option left is to take that Purus cure. I don't care much that she'll lose her gift, but my dad says there's a new law coming up.

Apparently, if a Gifted person accepts a cure; they can go to prison. Something about the 'accepting of a cure violates our contract to act in a way that meets the required standards'.

It's all so weird, but it's even weirder that I have to keep this away from mum. Dad's sure she won't agree on my role as Willow's hero.

22/01/'30

Dad keeps pulling me out of school during lunch! I haven't even been able to see Willow. I wonder what she thinks of me right now. I wish I could tell her all about it, but we don't want Willow causing trouble.

30/01/'30

Today was the first time I saw Willow since her treatment started. She said things don't hurt her anymore, but I know she is lying. She looks terrible.

Kane asked me to memorise exits and the number of guards. He wants to help her run away, but his plan definitely won't work.

Kane doesn't even know where she'd run to; he only knows she won't be at this compound if this works. He isn't thinking straight, but I'm glad he wants to help. I told him I'd help with whatever I can, but I have my own mission to complete.

I also saw Old Otis hit Kane a few days ago. It isn't the first time he does that, but I don't know why he tries to beat him so hard when Kane probably barely feels it. Old Otis is weaker than before. I didn't tell Willow that they sent Kane home, because I thought she'd feel guilty. He isn't kicked out or anything, but it still isn't good news.

09/02/'30

It's midterm tomorrow. I've packed most of my clothes since I won't be coming back to the compound for a while. I wonder if anyone else has the fear of random people trying on their clothes when they're not around?

10/02/'30

I woke up early to get some writing done. I don't know if I'll be able to write in here again, but maybe it's for the best. Willow has said that I've outgrown a diary. It just feels good to put all my thoughts down and sometimes I flip back to see how much I've changed. Not that I can't remember my entries. I just like reading them. And who knows...maybe people will find this many years in the future and I'll become famous for my story!