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Thinking of you
-Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed.
"May I have this dance, baby?" Sabi sa akin ng boyfriend ko na si Alvin.
22nd birthday ko ngayon. Hindi ko nga inakala na paghahandaan niya ito eh. Masyado kasi siyang busy. Isa siyang sundalo. Marami na siyang parangal na natatanggap at sobrang humahanga ako sa tapang niya.
-You said move on
Where do I go?
I guess second best
Is all I will know.
Pumayag ako sa alok niya.
Kakatapos ko lang naman kasi sumayaw sa kay Daddy. Medyo masakit pa ang paa ko pero wala akong pakialam. Boyfriend ko itong nasa harapan ko.
-'Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Sumayaw kami ng mabagal. And habang patagal ng patagal, mas gugustuhin ko nalang na sumayaw kasama siya.
Hindi ko alam pero sa tuwing tinititigan ko ang mata niya para bang hinihigit ako noon sa aking comfort zone.
Ganyan, mahilig akong tumitig sa mata niya. Kaya kung mawawala siya sa akin, magwawala talaga ako.
Para akong nahi-hypnotize.
-You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best?
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test
He slowly kneel down leaving me with my mouth open. Lalo na nung inilabas niya ang pulang box galing sa kaniyang bulsa.
"Tonight, this is my confidence. You are the woman that I asked God for. Toni, will you marry me?" He said as his tears falls down to his face.
"Yes!" I answered full of confidence.
He immediately stand up and hugged me tight.
-He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself
He kissed my lips and I swear, that was the best day of my life.
Everyone is cheering for us.
-'Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...
"Alvin, all my life I thought I was never worth loving... but then you came in to my life giving colors-no painting colors into my life. And today, I would say, you are the man that I want to spend the rest of my life. I love you." I vowed.
Everyone clapped their hands.
"...you may now kissed the bride." Sabi ng pari.
Dahan-dahan niyang itinaas ang belo ko at hinalikan ang aking noo.
"I love you." He whispered.
And then, he kissed my lips.
-You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now, now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know
4 years later
"I promised. Huwag kang mag-alala, ayos lang ako." Sabi niya at tinawanan pa ako.
"Paano kung mabaril ka doon?" Sabi ko sa kaniya habang wala pa ring tigil ang pag-iyak.
"I won't. Heto nga oh, matagal na akong may tama..." He paused and pinakita ang kaniyang small tattoo.
It's my name.
"Matagal na akong may tama...sayo." sabi niya kaya napatawa ako.
Nakatira na kami sa iisang bahay ngayon and buntis din ako. 6 months.
"Ayaw ko nga sanang umalis kasi buntis ka eh." Sabi niya at nag-pout.
"Kung okay ka, okay din ako." Sabi ko to cheer him up.
Hinalikan niya ulit ako at niyakap patalikod.
"Hindi kita mayakap paharap kasi andoon si baby kaya sa likod nalang." Natatawang sabi niya habang hinahimas ang tiyan ko.
-'Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Three days later, nakatanggap ako ng sulat galing sa military based nila saying that Alvin was shot during the war.
Ilang beses kong kinumbinsi ang sarili ko na hindi yun totoo. Na sana, biro lang iyon. Biro lang ang lahat pero hindi.
Hindi iyon biro.
-Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
His body was sent to our house.
Sobra akong malungkot, ni kalusugan ko, napabayaan ko.
Lahat sila natatakot para sa kapakanan ng baby sa sinapupunan ko.
"Sige na, kumain ka na, sa tingin mo ba masaya si alvin sa ginagawa mo?" Tanong ng mommy niya sa akin.
I was left dumb founded.
Nabalik ako sa reyalidad.
Inalagaan ko ang sarili ko.
Gustuhin ko ma'ng umiyak, hindi ko magawa.
Hindi ko maisip na maaga siyang nawala sa akin. Hindi ko maisip na walang ama ang anak ko.
Hindi ko maisip na sa huli, ako nalang at ang anak ko.
-Oh no more mistakes
'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay... stay.
Sana habang maaga pa, sana pinigilan nalang kita.
