𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐰𝐞 𝐦𝐞𝐭||M.POLIBIO

eleven

"you- you WHat?"

"i like you, but guessing by the girl that just came out of your house with smudged lipstick...i don't think you like me back."

"i- im sorry i don't feel the same way"

"its fine, can we keep being besties tho?"
i said with a smile

little did he know, i was on the screaming on the inside

"yeah, yeah we can. im sorry for pressuring you to tell me"
he said with an apologetic smile

"its okay"
i sigh

"im kinda tired, i think im gonna head back to my house, see you tomorrow?"

"yeah I'll see you tomorrow"

𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐈𝐀𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐕

she likes me?
she likes me.

why don't i like her back?
i honestly don't know.

she's a amazing person,
i just had never thought of her like that.

of course i thought she was pretty,
she's my best friend.

i mean..
she did look really good today.

nah i can't think like that.

she'll lose feelings eventually right?

UGH

why am i overthinking this so much

i mean i don't like her back..
do i?

no no.

she's my best friend that's it,
unless.....

"I LIKE YOU DUMB FUCK"
those five words kept replaying in my head

she looked so frustrated when she said it
like she had been hiding it for a while

did she like me for that long
& hide it from me?

fuck now i feel bad

i probably made her feel like shit

—

i feel like shit.

eh honestly i didn't expect him to like me back
even if he did i still wouldn't know how to react...
no one has ever liked me before.

that's kinda sad now that i think about it

NO ONE.
has ever liked me...

wow.

"i- im sorry i don't feel the same way"

yeah...
ouch.

i didn't even notice the whole time that I've been walking home ive been balling my eyes out

i didn't cry in front of him of course...

i act like i don't care, but fuck it hurt

he's the first person ive ever had feelings for & he didn't even like me back.

-𝑎𝑡 ℎ𝑜𝑚𝑒-

before my mom could find me like this i ran into my room.

i looked into my mirror

messy hair,red eyes & my mascara is ruined

haha

(TW)

i took a blade out

one for being stupid & falling for my player best friend

& one for being even stupider:)

i cleaned the cuts & ended up taking a nap

-𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑛𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑓𝑢𝑙𝑙 𝑜𝑓 𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑟𝑜𝑟-