Fuck. I spent the last two holidays alone and now I'm going to be spending new years alone too. I hate everything right now. Like I started cutting again. I can't help it. It just.. Makes me feel alive. I feel numb all the time. And there's nothing I can do about it. I don't want to be living anymore. Maybe I should try starving myself again. I mean I did say I wanted my stomach flat again. Best way to do it is to not eat. So why not. Then I might feel something. I'm just done being an emotionless twat that no one cares about. I feel empty and lost all the time. Even right now. I don't know why I turned to here to share. I mean really whose going to read this. No one. Exactly. Because no one cares and no ones going to know about this.
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An Average Day
Non-FictionI doubt anyone will read these. but I can't trust anyone in my house to have an actual journal. So I turned here.
