My perfect life

Used to the pain

But Nessa grabbed my arm gently, what? Why was she so gentle??

Vanessa : wait, Roni..

Veronica : what?? Is everything ok??

Vanessa : yea, well no, I wanna ask you something, may I??

Veronica : s-sure? Go ahead..
I was kidna worried

Vanessa : may I see your wrists??
Noo, heck naah!!

Veronica : umm.. I don't really want too
I really don't want to talk about this..

Vanessa : Roni! Show me your wrist!
By her tone, she was mad, and kinda sad.

Veronica : Nessa please I do-
She cut me by turning my wrist to see the scars from earlier...

Vanessa : ......
She really said nothing... she was crying, tears was spilling like a waterfall of her eyes. What's wrong??

Veronica : Nes-Nessa I-I'm sorry...
I didn't know what to say, I was scared for her, she should stop caring about me...

Vanessa : Roni? Could you just explain??
She was calm

Veronica : I-I...
I didn't want to tell her about Ada and Dalton, they made it, I didn't, they hurted me. I hate scratching myself or even pinch myself... but they made it, all the scars and bruises in my body is because of them.

Vanessa : who did it?!!!
Did she know tha-

Vanessa : it's obviously not you. Who did it Roni?? Just tell me..

Veronica : Me. I did it Nessa.
I said and started to tear up

Vanessa : no you did not, they did it, right?? Please be honest to me, I hate it when you lie. Please Roni...
She said as grabbing my hand with sympathy, I loved her touch, she is so gentle snd nice.

Veronica : they did it... I hate hurting myself

Vanessa : Ro-Roni I'm so-sorry-
She aaid as stared to hug me, her hug was the best, it was gentle, full with love, just everything in that girl is amazing, she is amazing, she is my perfect sister... And I mean it 'perfect'

Vanessa : Roni please don't ever think like that ok??
She said as broke off the hug.

Vanessa : why did they do that??

Veronica : umm.. Dalton do it when he doesn't like the food I make and Ada when I touch or talk to anyone in anywhere.
I said soo calmly, this crap didn't effect me, let them go f**k themselves, I don't give a d**m to them, I'm not scared anymore.

Vanessa : why didn't you fight them??

Veronica : they were tying me up the most times, or tell me "if you move we'll make it harder" and they did it, they dig harder and harder until I lose my conscious and pass out...

Vanessa: I'm sorry Roni- I-I didn't know this happened.. I'm so sorry.

Veronica : don't apologize, you didn't know. I don't care anymore, they left ugly scars on my body, want to see something more horrible that you saw!??
I said confidently and lifted my shirt up showing my stomach, what they did to me earlier

Veronica : they tied my hands to the sides of the bed and grabbed a hot smoothing iron on my stomach, that's horrible right?? They did more and more and more no words describe how much I hate them.

Vanessa : Roni! How the heck dare them!!!!! Roni I'm so sorry
She said as she started to cry even more, I felt bad for her, I don't like see her sad or crying and because of me...

Vanessa : Roni no! It's not because of you, it's because of them
I was talking out loud again.. that's not just embarrassing... but it's weird and crazy thing, you can't control yourself to not talking.

Veronica : anyways, nessa please stop crying, that hurt me more, I hate seeing you cry.
I started to cry even more, I don't know how to explain myself, she said that I am amazing, and I'm just hurting her.

Vanessa : ok ok I'm sorry, I'm not gonna I promise...
She said as she started to wipe her tears, and then, she continued.

Vanessa : I'll be strong *sniff* and you have to *sniff* promise me that too *sniff*

Veronica : Nessa I dont want to see you hurt

Vanessa : just answer my question... please Roni...

Veronica : ok fine, I'll

Vanessa : you'll be what??
I don't want to say it, I'm not strong and never been, I'm soo weak, so so so so weak, I couldn't even fight my pain, it was ridiculous... I am ridiculous.

Vanessa : hmm?
She shook her head waiting for response...

Veronica : okay Ipromisei'llbesostrong please stop caring about me.
I said that like a motorcycle... yea.. you read that right, I said it sooo fast

Vanessa : ok I hope so, and, umm. Does that hurt you?

Veronica : which one?
I said then laughed, I did, after like 17 years, I laughed, I liked that, it's really good to laugh.

Vanessa : the one in your stomach?
Ooo that one.

Veronica : well.. that was like 5 days ago, and it still hurt, I think I'm fine. It just stung sometimes, I cant have a heavy pressure on it. That's it
I said calmly. Even though I shouldn't be calm, but I'm used to the pain...