11 October, 2019.
Dear alone,
Writing this diary entry is the first time I've moved or done anything all day. I still can't believe she's gone.
I've not eaten anything since breakfast yesterday. It feels good to be hungry. I want to keep it that way. It's the only thing I've felt, hunger. I don't feel anything else. Just numb.
I don't know what's wrong with me. Was it my fault that Laura died? Do I have that much bad luck that it killed the only person I would tell everything?
I've still not accepted the fact that Laura's died. I'm still waiting for her to knock on my window, laughing and ask if I want to go out shopping.
The funeral is in 2 days. The day where I say goodbye to my best friend, forever if getting closer and closer. But I have to be strong. For my family, her family, for Laura. I know Laura wouldn't want me to be crying over her, but I can't help it.
I remember a song lyric that said,
"you told me not to cry when you were gone, but the feelings overwhelming, it's much too strong." and that shows exactly how I feel.
I'm probably being over emotional but she was my best friend and I don't know how I'm going to live without her. But the scary part is, I know I'll have to. Just knowing that I'll have to wake up everyday and get on with my day without my best friend makes me want to curl up in a ball and cry forever.
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Alone (diary style)
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