my life story

Why?? I dont know

Ok so after all that I blamed myself for my dads death but that's for later. So after that I'm now in Des Arc and have some new friends Rolls, ally, and Shorty. No that's not their names. They're all girls and Ally is like me. Kinda she's bi and I thought I was bi turns out I'm pan which is where I like all genders and tes there's more than just boys and girls. I've been friends with Ally and Shorty since 5th grade which is when I came here. Rolls just came here this year in 7th grade. But me and Ally have had a few fights...but we've finally made up. And then there's CJ, KJ, and Mickey, still not their names but that's aside from the point Mickey has dated all of my female friends...sadly...I used to hate Mickey because he acted like a jerk but then he started dating Rolls and we started getting along...kinda...and now I've come to him twice or three times when I broke down...which doesn't happen often!!! Anyhow Rolls and Mickey broke up after our school dance and but I still talk to him from time to time. CJ is just a friend I have. It's pretty cool. And KJ is this guy who gets on my nerves but he can be fun sometimes. So yeah present day and things aren't too bad. I'm 14 and dont have a dad anymore. I haven't heard anything but texts on holidays from my mom. On my birthday she texted at 12!! At night!!! Like what in the world?! We saw her a little while back...it was 11 to 12...at night. She was walking down the road. Me, my aunt, and my sister wanted to get out and say something...my uncle refused to stop the truck. And now almost every day I fight with my sister because I cant just stand up for myself...she thinks everything is her business but it's not. She'll be leaving soon she's in the 11th grade so when school starts it'll be her last year. So anyhow despite everything that's happened I still miss the person that is supposed to my mom. Why?? I don't know... I guess I just really wish I could have a family I can trust.