The Unexpected Became Reality

Prologue

5th June 2013

Right now i am staring at the plain white ceiling that is saturated above my bed. The only thing that isn't plain is the definitions of the swirls that are rigid on it. Twisting and twirling in all different directions, some lines are more 3D then others are. Sometimes if you stare for long enough you can see pictures. Faces. Even words.

Thats the stage I'm at. I am just starting to see pictures. The definition of the swirls are showing me right now; Rabbits. Well a Rabbit. So not plural.

How long have i been here? Days, i haven't left. My bed is probably now imprinted with my body indent for probably a long time.

Have i eaten?

No.

Do i care?

No.

The world is better of without me. Trust.

I don't want this to be a sad depressing story. Its just the way right now. I mean sometimes you gotta fall before you fly.

But once again. Im probably falling.
Im just the girl with good grades, who finds books fascinating, who finds the popular kids not inspirational but arrogant and just stubborn. All they think about is themselves, they boss people around and bully new kids, or anyone that gets in the way.

Then theres me. The one that is called the teachers pet, the perfect straight A student. But im not. I need good grades, my dad has a moral and hes made me go with it.

No distractions, no trouble, no drama and no boys.

Especially in school.

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But now. Thats in the past. That was around a year ago. Now, i guess im happy. I have what everyone would love to have i guess. The bestest friend. Good friends, a family. But to be seriously honest. Yeah i have friends and most things i want but, i dont exactly want this life. I basically have a blanket over myself. Basically a barrier, where it covers up everything at home, everything that goes on. Everything thats possibly wrong. But no one gets that.

No one would want my life, if they knew what was possibly wrong with it.

But, this is where it starts to even out.

Things happen for a reason, but what was the reason for this? Why me?

Thats why i get so depressed, I try to do the things i do but then, someone is in the way. Like there is someone there but i dont know who. Why they are stopping me but if this is the reason for everything thats happened then, i hope its worth it.

Although i found this quote.

'Be careful who you trust, the devil was once an Angel.'

I, at first didnt take anything of it, like normal. Now, i think i am.

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When i was a baby, i was born next to my best friend. Little did i know that, i would be sat here with her by my side still. Especially after what ive done. Alot of things have happened in my life and i guess this is where it starts to come out. But this isnt about me, okay, thats a lie, im writing this so i guess it is, however this i did hope it would turn out to be a change in my life. Just not one that i expected. Not this big.