No Matter What I'm Here

Panic Attack

Lucy Pov

It was now three hours later Ian had spent the last two getting me to tell him what was going on but i kept telling him I was fine. I didn't need him or the girls to worry about me this was my issue no one else.

We walked into the photoshoot the whole cast were there. I smiled as I spotted Keegan he ran over to me and hugged me tightly believe it or not Keegan and I got closer over the break almost as close as I was to Ian we facetimed everyday and he knew I had a few doubts but not the full story. Ian watched on but soon after left us too it. I looked at Keegan and we both walked to the corner of the room.

"Those doubts there again Goose" Keegan asked I was glad he knew I had doubts "Yeah they are. What about you?" He looked at me before replying "Yep" That the person I told Keegan about my acting doubts as he had the same issues he however didn't know about the self doubt or the anxiety. He pulled me into a hug and held me tightly.

Ian Pov

I was looking everywhere I couldn't see Lucy for someone so small she knew how to hide easily when Ashley walked to me and spoke "Are Lucy and Keegan a thing? The question she asked surprised me I even looked at Ashley confused and she pointed at a corner and there was Lucy and Keegan hugging. For some reason I wish it was me she was hugging not Keegan what does he have that I don't this was a question I was beginning to ask myself and why was Lucy hugging Keegan really bothering me I was yet to figure that out.

Shortly after Marlene came in followed by Lucy and Keegan coming back I gave Keegan a look but he looked from Lucy to Troian to avoid eye contact with me. He was keeping something from me and I had a feeling it was about Lucy.

Marlene just called me and Lucy to in front of the photographer so they could take Erzia promo photos. All of the cast and some of the crew were watching us. It was halfway through the shot when Lucy let go of me and looked at everyone " I need a minute don't follow me" I was confused what just happened.

Lucy Pov

i was struggling with all the people around I felt as those I couldn't breathe so I let go of Ian and ran to my dressing room and slammed the door shut before sitting down I could feel my chest get tight and I knew what was happening I was having a panic attack I just stayed sitting trying to calm myself down before I went back out there. I spent the next hour sitting down on the floor in my dressing room calming down but I didn't feel better enough to go back out there so I stayed on the floor and took one breath at a time