rants, by yours truly

july 10th, 2020

i just logged back into this account after probably 3 years lol. im writing this incase I ever log back in again after some time.
it's crazy to see how much ive changed. im 17 now and the way i act and think has changed so much. i still have the same views and everything, still a very loving and open minded person, just a lot more sad lol.
i miss when the problems i was having in the previous chapters were my biggest issues.
life is just eh right now. im nervous for what the future holds. all i can think about is what will have happened the next time i re discover this.
im not good with words anymore lol. not good at expressing my thoughts or feelings at all anymore, not that i ever really was. i hope that will improve with time. there's so many things i want to say in this but my brain just sucks at forming sentences. i miss this app and when things were just so simple. i miss the internet friends i had and the conversations and video calls we had. im still in contact with one, i wonder if ill continue to.
anyways. we're living in the corona pandemic right now. my senior year is ruined so that's so awesome lol. i hope i get at least a few good memories, even though things won't be how they should be. just one more year then ill be done with school. i hope i leave Victoria. that is my one true goal for when i graduate. i hope i don't fuck up my life even more and im not able to achieve that. but we shall see i guess.

but yeah im gonna leave it off here. there's more i want to say but like i said, retard brain lol. i hope if i ever read this again my life has changed for the better, if it changed for the worse, i know reading this then will make me depressed and feel like shit lol. let's change it for the better fallon. you dumb stupid bitch.

:)