A Love Or Obsession?!

I Don't Like Her

Tayaki pov...
I don't like her. She's an ugly bitch. Blah blah blah blah BLAH. That's all I hear from Dixton. I can't ever recall a time he said something nice to me. All he said was rude stuff. Does it ever fucking occur to that dick ass that it hurts my feelings?! Clearly not because I yet still has a crush on him. "Is it an obsession? Or is it really love?" I asked myself. I was standing outside of the school. Letting the rain be my shower. My tears mixed in with the sorrow ness that poured before me. "Dixton. Why don't you like me?" I asked the rain. As weird as it was but I really didn't care. I just can't get that fucking note he wrote out of my head. I don't like you. Who ever told you that was lying. Stop staring at me all the time. I really don't like you (hate you). Just leave me alone and please stop writing my # on yo face. Stop telling people that I like you. Cause I don't. You ugly af and you annoying. I DONT LIKE YOU!!!!! I now realize that whenever my mind tells me he likes you! I know it's lying. Maybe if I was gone I wouldn't have to- No! It wouldn't help. I would die with this pain in me. Why haven't I disliked him? Why can't I just move on?! Is this really just an obsession? As much as I would say I love him I should know better than that. But is it a sin for crying that night?! Is it a sin if I just thought in my head 'would he care if I was dead?!'?! I wouldn't think so. "I'm gonna knock him to the moon and stab him in his eye! No one calls my lil sis ugly!!!" Ariala said. "No. Please not the moon." I pleaded. I should be saying 'Yea! I'll help too!' But I just can't. When I look at myself I feel like some innocent witch that tricked a dude into liking me. I still think it has to do with the fact that I went out with a 8th grader last year. If only Dixton knew that I didn't have real feelings for that 8th grader. I later this year I found out that he was just playing with people hearts. So he really didn't like me. I didn't really care yet I found it funny that he thought he played me, when I still had a big crush on Dixton. Why fucking act like I love him when I don't? The only somewhat of a reason was because I heard that Dixton doesn't like me. He even said "I don't like her." knowing I was right there. So still here I am letting the rain pour on me. I need to go inside before I get a cold. "Tayaki." Dixton said.I widened my eyes in horror and surprise. "Hm?" I replied. I let my soak silver bang cover my left eye. My once happy and joyful pigtails are now damped in sorrow and hurt. "Look. You need to come inside before you get a cold." Since was it to you whether I would get a cold or not?" I asked him. "It.... Never mind." He said. "Why did you come out here?" "Why shouldn't I?" "Because you know I would be out here." I said forming another silence. "Tayaki I wanted to apologize." He stated. "You're lying! You know your not sorry!" I said tears blurring my vision. Tears of deadness poured from my red bloody pearl eyes. "What about your side of the st-" "Oh my side of the story?!" I turned towards him with anger and hurt in my eyes. "My side is when you call me an ugly bitch! You let your friends pick on me when I liked you!!" Tayaki you hurt me too! you think I wasn't fucking hurt when I found out that you went outwith that 8th grader last year?! Did you think I was fucking happy for you?! No! I was fucking pissed! Hurt! Confused! I went home that night wondering how the fuck is she gonna have a crush on me then got out with some fucking 8th grader?!" He shouted and grabbed my shoulders so I was facing him. I saw anger in eyes through my wettened moonlight bangs.
(A/N: How did I Do? I know I know It was short. STAY TUNED FOR THE NEXT CHAP. Read-chans😍😍😍😍😍)