A Love Or Obsession?!

Talk To Him!

Tayaki pov...
This weekend went by sooo fast! It's already Sunday and I keep forgetting that there's school tomorrow! I'm going to see Dixton tomorrow! I guess I spoke too soon about this weekend going by slow. I have no idea what I'm going to wear tomorrow! Ughhhh this could be so frustrating! I font think I'm ready for tomorrow. I keep daydreaming about walking towards Dixton and kiss him on his lips and run out of the classroom. I don't even have enough guts to be that close to him! Well I'm need to hurry it up and say something to him before he gets another girlfriend and it possibly being his true love! Dammit Tayaki! Stop being do shy! Just say hi or tell him about the shows you're going to catch up on! Say something! Stop staring at him so much and just.... Uuuuggghhhhhh! It's like to someone else it's nothing to stress about. Like I'm over stressing at nothing. People just talk to their crush like its the easiest thing in the world to do! Just be confident.. If he's rude to you when you're trying to start a conversation then...... OH MY FUCKING GOSH THIS IS LITERALLY KILLING ME!!!!!!!!!! I keep hoping that he's gonna start a conversation with me but I should know way better then actually believing that. Besides he's quiet... That helps a little. It somewhat decreases the chance of him yelling at me. That's what I'm afraid of. Him yelling at me when I say hi. I'm scared things will go the complete wrong way. That he'll probably try to roast on me.... Embarrass me badly and basically announce loudly how much he doesn't like me. I feel like his enemy. I always believed that when someone doesn't like that means they don't want me as friend. With boys I always believed when a boy doesn't like if I had a crush on him it meant that I'm just an enemy to him...we could never be friends....he would never want to talk to me. That I'm nothing to him. I still be,I've that with Dixton but for some reason I still like him. If I were to tell him or if he were to read this I'm sure he would find it annoying. He would...... UUUGGHHHHHH!!!!! I'm really frustrated now! This is really bugging me! Why can't I just talk to him like it's no big deal?! (A\N: This keyboard is really starting to frustrate me!)
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I just got done taking a shower. I feel so much better! Anyway, I was of course thinking of Dixton. Yet I ended up making up some song that had to deal with my situation..,, I forgot how it went though. Soo in the next like 8 hours I'm going to wake up on the day I'm suppose to try to talk to Dixton . The day when I see whether I sit next to him in c.o. Or not.... I'm really nervous and yet excited. I don't know why the hell I'm excited! Goodnight~
A/N: Until next chapter read-chans!!! 💕