Against My Will (formerly Love & War.)

Daddy Issues..

I walked down the grand hall to my dads office slowly, I never usually went into my dads office or the grand hall and I was in awe of it when I was a child, sometimes I used to sneak in and run around to no end but that was almost always was cut short by my dad who said he wanted to protect me from pack business but that only made me think that he was hiding something in there.

That was a long time ago but the appearance still made me gasp and put a mischievous smile on my face, just waiting for the huge mahogany doors to open and my dads booming voice to tell me off which somewhat seemed louder in the acoustics of the room.

The grand hall was round and had high ceilings had a huge pillar in the middle, the ceiling had paintings and carvings all the way around it, my dad said that it had been there for lifetimes and that every pack had a story to tell and those paintings and carvings was ours and that's all he ever said about it.

I was fascinated by the story but could never read it. I attempted once or twice but the symbols were a myth to me and my neck ached before I got too far.

The grand hall was in itself a magnificent museum for our pack with paintings and tapestries of many generations of Alphas and Lunas. My favourite was Luna Lila, she lived a very long time ago around 1000 AD, she was beautiful, intriguing and also interesting, because of what she was. A human.

My mother used to tell me stories about her to get me asleep when I was little. Legend has it that she was cursed when she was little so that her wolf wouldn't wake on her 17th birthday like everyone else, instead it just stayed asleep. That's how my mom put it anyway.

The huge mahogany doors opened, interrupting my thoughts and a voice spoke out, echoing around the room. "Come in now darling." I was surprised with the tone of my dads voice, it wasn't sharp or angry.

Wasn't he concerned about me not being in the bunker?

I walked in to his office, greeted with a look of disappointment. Okay that answered my question.

"Why were you not in the bunker? I was worried that they might of hurt you, or used you to get to me." My dads voice deepened and I could sense his alpha tone but I didn't bow my head, I had alpha blood too and I didn't submit easily.

"I was at the hospital, the healers need help with all the wounded, I couldn't just sit in that bunker and let my people die!" I crossed my arms over my chest stubbornly, not looking into his eyes but out the near window, feeling his eyes glare holes into my head.

"I built that bunker so you and all the other women and children could hide! I built it to protect you! Look at me when I am spea-" I cut him off and looked straight into his eyes, filled with anger.

"Protect me? Protect mom?! Protect all the mothers and children!? Well I am sorry dad but last time I checked mom was dead! Women and children are lying dead in that hospital, on the freaken floor! Is that protection to yo-"

"Darlin-" I could see the hurt in his eyes when I mentioned mom, but I just kept going.

"No! You don't darling me! I mean what is all this for? This stupid war!? Do you know what it's like to be a 17 year old girl forced to a life where I always have to watch my step?! This should be the time of my life instead I'm stuck in a war and I don't even know why!" I had tears in my eyes, my built up anger quickly diminishes into a feeling of sadness, but I had so many questions unanswered, I gave him time to think, knowing there was no straight answer. Not with my dad, anyway.

"You wouldn't understand."

Oh of course that would be his answer. That's what he always said.

I parted my lips to speak but he beat me to it. "Why weren't you a boy.." He said in a whisper, asking himself more than me.

Oh that stung.

But I didn't blame him for saying it, I had asked that to myself before.

Normally first borns of an alpha were boys, therefore the alpha didn't have to worry about an heir but unfortunately for my dad, I was a girl. They tried again but mom didn't get pregnant. She got checked out and the healer said that I was a rare occurrence and that she was barren from having children and it was most likely never to happen again.

I looked at my dad, keeping quiet, he was deep in thought and I wouldn't dare disrupt him. "Anyway, that little argument was not what I asked you here for." He paused.

"I am calling for a ceasefire."

I gasped and my jaw had hypothetically, hit the floor.

After ten years of your life hiding in a bunker on every attack and when you can't remember a time where there wasn't killing or fighting, it's hard to come to a concept where it's actually ending.

"It's over?" I whispered, my voice cracking as I took it all in.

"If they accept, then yes it is." He said with a tight smile.

"And then what if they don't?" Relief fading with every word I say, knowing they most likely wouldn't accept.

"Don't worry, I have that covered." He said with assertiveness.

"Now come here and give me a hug. He smiled, and I walked round his huge desk and gave him a hug. "It's going to be okay Darling." He whispered reassurance into my ear.

I think I trusted him.

I wanted to.

I really did.

But my wolf was telling me not to.

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