I want you

Chapter 1 : Im in love with you

I dated this guy in 7th and 8th grade and his name was Alex.
Our relationship didn't last very long since he asked me out on the last day of 7th grade and broke up with me on the first day of 8th grade. We stayed friends even after the breakup which I'm really happy about. Then one day he told me that he liked my best friend who's name is Victoria. I became really depressed and wanted to be left by myself all day and everyday.
I stopped talking to both him and my Victoria because I was so extremely mad at them. After about a month I started to talk to them again and pretty soon I stopped being so depressed and became friends with both of them again.
I felt the least depressed when I was with him because I still had feelings for him and I wanted to still be with him. But pretty soon him and Victoria began to hug in the halls as I was walking with them to our classes. I went back to my depressed state again. Then one day I realized that they were trying to ignore each other and weren't talking to each other at all. So I asked Victoria what happened and she told me that over the last weekend they went to the movies together and that he asked her to be his girlfriend but she said no because she was getting over a breakup at the time and wasn't ready to move on yet. Soon everything went back to normal and I wasn't depressed, they began talking to each other and they both decided not to date at all and just stay friends (which I was very happy about). Everything is still normal, but he has a girlfriend who is Victoria's best friend from the singing classes she goes to, her name is Delilah. She is a 7th grader from a different school and he asked her out one day after school. They are so ' in love ' with each other that it drives me insane. I started to go back to my depressed state again, but when I hang out with him everything goes away ; the hurt that I've been through, the anger and everyone else disappears and it doesn't matter where I am. Today we hung out during lunch, laughing and trying to step on each others shoes and I was so happy that it was like all pressure was lifting off of my shoulders. Every minute that I spend with him makes me think less about all of my problems. But one always stays in my mind.
He has a girlfriend and it's not me.