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Dream is not reality:

I step into the classroom with a dark heart.

My converse step onto the floor with certainty but no clarity.

As my eyes scan all the students they land upon him.

Oh, how beautiful.

I would say hot, attractive, or handsome.

But, he was just beautiful. Everything about him.

His hair, 

                       eyes, 

                                       nose, 

                                                           lips.

The way when he truly smiles the corners of his eyes crinkle.

Or his eyes truly shine.

The way his affection towards me grew as everyday went by.

I don't know if who I am seeing is real or just fragments of a dream.

But, as our interactions grow stronger my darkness grows.

I don't believe it's due to him.

I ponder over it today and tomorrow.

But, as I become lost and my vision now dark.

I can't see him.

Everything is gone.

All our interactions have now left me withered.

His eyes don't shine as much as they used to.

I do not know what happened.

I want him, and only him.

But, the sun doesn't shine the way it used to.

The drastic change has left me wondering was I dreaming it all?

Or was it real?

Who was real?

Did I make it up?

How did this all lead to him not being right anymore? 

I swear, just yesterday he was the one for me.