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i started writing this book because one night i was feeling super emotional with my personal life. my friend suggested that i write it all down, so i decided to write it in a diary format addressing it to the person i feel the most guilty to. i hurt a friend or crush (idk i wasn't sure about my feelings) in my life because i was busy caring about my feelings more than his. everything i written down actually happened to me, but i didn't want to write every moment i had with him because that's personal.
addressing him as someone else's name, especially bangtan's, feels so wrong bc there will always be one taehyung and one bts in our world. yet, i can't just expose his name. if this book ever gets discovered one day in which he reads it, then you will know exactly who you are. especially my taehyung, i'm sorry for the pain i put you through. i sincerely apologize again.
so before y'all start to judge me or anything, i just want to say that people make mistakes. there's no such thing as being perfect because i know for a fact that no one is and i'm for sure not. i made a lot of mistakes and many i'm not proud of, but because of them i took it as a lesson and learned from it so i wouldn't make the same mistake again. in a relationship (friendship or love relationship), people can make the most rash decision and not actually mean it. and that's a mistake. i know everyone has made a mistake before at least once in their life, so no you shouldn't judge anyone because of their past. the present them is what matters, not the past.
people make mistakes in relationships. i hurt a few people in my life and i regret it a lot. so to the people who are struggling out there with the mistakes they made, learn from it. i hurt people because i was suffering from my demons. i hated myself so much that my coping mechanism was to hurt people the same way i was hurt (*coughs i'm talking abt my yoongi*). i regret so much for what i did that i've already apologized sincerely to people. even though some didn't accept it, it's the thought that counts. i regretted and apologized and i grew from it.
like i said in the epilogue, i'm the person i am today because of them (yoongi and taehyung). i changed myself to be a better person. i learned to love myself and find my own happiness without relying on a boy to give it to me. in order to be happy, you must love learn to love yourself first. so don't worry about whether or not you are happy, focus on yourself. you should be your first priority, not anyone else (omg i sound selfish srry but that's my way of thinking). so rewrite your wrongs with your rights.
so here's a little sweet quote i love,
"the pain you feel today is the strength you feel tomorrow"
i would like to say, thank you reading this book and being a part of my story. it's nice for someone to listen to me for once and i really appreciate each one of your views, comments, and votes. thank you for making me happy, my lovely readers. i treasure each and every one of you because everyday when i wake up i smile whenever i see a notification that someone has voted/commented or followed me. cya on one of my other stories! ily all.
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to the people who are judging me as they read this,
pls don't leave hate comments bc that's pathetic.
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