Kokichi Angst Oneshot Book

All Kokichi Had Left

This oneshot takes place after the second trial. It also diverges from how the actual game goes.

TW: This oneshot involves themes such as self harm, depression, and suicide.

Oneshot Inspired By @vocaaa.cosplay.bean's tiktok

"Kokichi?" Shuichi asked, "What're you doing in my room? It's nighttime," Shuichi was confused to say the least but he did have some suspicions as to why Kokichi was still in his room. Could he possibly be planning to murder him? It did seem like something he would do...

Kokichi broke down crying shortly after Shuichi spoke. "Oh come on- I'm not gonna fall for your fake crying." Kokichi looked up at Shuichi.

"It's cause I'm a liar, right?" Kokichi said with a fake smile on his face. Shuichi looked at the purple haired boy sadly. After what Kokichi had said, he wasn't entirely sure if it was fake crying anymore. But, of course, he still had his doubts.

"Kokichi," Shuichi lifted Kokichi's chin. "What's wrong?" He wanted to help the boy. And even if it was fake crying it wouldn't hurt to help him. "Did someone say something? Did someone do something?"

"Well, no, not really..." Kokichi answered him.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"It's not something that someone said or did. It's there everyday."

"What is?"

"I don't know what it is, but all I know is that it follows me around and makes me always feel down. It makes me doubt myself, want to hurt myself. But-but the thing is I'm not supposed to feel this way. Everyone else is happy, so why can't I be?" It seemed almost out of character for Kokichi to say something like this. Though he was a lier and this could very well be a lie. But at the same time, Shuichi was saddened by what Kokichi said. Cause he knew exactly how Kokichi felt.

Ever since Shuichi was 12 he had been bullied by his peers at school. Mostly for the fact that he would often obsess over certain TV shows or movies or books for a while. This, of course, caused him to go on and on about one specific topic. Many of his classmates found this weird and cringey and they made sure to make him know that. They would repeatedly call him names, tell him things like that he didn't deserve to live, and sometimes on rare occasions beat him.

This made Shuichi go into a depressed state. And based from Shuichi's experience and what Kokichi said, it seemed that Kokichi was in the same sort of state as Shuichi had been. And that realization scared Shuichi.

What scared Shuichi about this realization was if Kokichi had done similar things to what Shuichi had done during his depressive state.....no Shuichi didn't want to think of that possibility. But there was indication that Kokichi had even thought of harming himself. He had even said "It makes me doubt myself, want to hurt myself.".

"Roll up your sleeves," Shuichi demanded.

"Wha...?"

"Roll up your sleeves, I said."

"I....uh-" Kokichi was cut off by Shuichi.

"Don't make me do it myself."

Kokichi tried to back away to the door. It was clear that he didn't want Shuichi to roll up his sleeves. Kokichi would have been able to escape if it weren't for Shuichi's quick thinking.

Shuichi grabbed onto Kokichi's arm, stopping him, and pulled up his sleeve. Kokichi's arm was littered with horizontal scars. Some looked more recent than others. Tears formed in his eyes as he looked at Kokichi's arm.

"Why?" Shuichi asked in a quiet voice.

"...What?"

"Why? Why didn't you tell anyone? Why didn't you reach out? You didn't have to do this!" The tone Shuichi was using struck fear into Kokichi. When Shuichi gazed into Kokichi's eyes that was evident. He saw the fear in the smaller boy's eyes and realized what he was doing. "I'm sorry. Just why, why didn't you reach out? You know you could've told someone, anyone," Shuichi spoke in a calmer tone this time.