New Job For You (boyxboy)

Rough day

*A/N: Today's January 1 so happy new year to everyone and happy birthday to Lee Sungmin! He's 32 now! I know he looks really young to be 32 but he is! He's 32 so Ryeowook is 30. He'll be 31 on June 21. Also thanks for the 75 readers! I'm really thankful!!!***

Ryeowook woke up. His eyes hurt from crying but he stood up and sneaked out of the hotel. Today was the day he and Sungmin were gonna go out and discover Milan now that there was no meeting. So he went to the hospital to visit Sungmin, not noticing the members were in the waiting room. He sat next to Sungmin and grabbed his hand. He started to hum a song and then started to sing it. His tears were unstoppable by now. He felt a few arms around him so when he opened his eyes, he saw Leeteuk and everybody else hugging him. They pulled away from the hug and gave him a small smile.

"It's ok, Wookie, it's ok to cry and to feel broken inside. And there's nothing wrong with that" Leeteuk said.

"Thank you guys" Ryeowook said. "But I think I just need to be alone "

"It's ok. We'll leave" Leeteuk said.

"No. I'll leave. I'm going back to Seoul. Heechul, you're in charge. This place just holds to many bad memories for me" Ryeowook said with a frown. He turned around to leave, his hand was on the door knob but he heard a cough.

"I hope you weren't planning to leave me" He knew this voice, he turned around and all the members stepped aside so he could see Sungmin awakened.

"S-Sungmin? " Ryeowook said and walked to him.

"Hi" Sungmin smiled. Ryeowook smiled and hugged him tightly until he winced so he pulled away.

"I hope you know this means no sex for you in a while" Ryeowook said and Sungmin laughed. "I missed you"

"How long was I out?" Sungmin asked sitting up but failed.

" 2 days and a half...sir" Heechul said.

"God...the meeting " Sungmin said trying to sit down again.

"Don't worry. Ryeowook did it" Leeteuk said. "And he did a fantastic job. The company agreed and now's on our side"

"Sir. You can leave now" The doctor said. "But first, please sign this forms"

"Ok. Thank you" Sungmin said and took the papers. A few minutes later, Sungmin finished the forms and handed it to the doctor.

"But, you're gonna need to use this crutches." The doctor instructed. And be careful with everything you do. Don't wet your head for a while or your back. You might have concussions for a while so I suggest you stay at home and pick this medications up at the nurse's office for the seizures "

"Ok. Thank you" Sungmin said. The doctor smiled and left the room. Ryeowook grabbed a backpack where it had Sungmin's clothes. He helped Sungmin stand up and entered the bathroom with him.

"I can do this" Sungmin said and tried to raise his hand but winced at the pain coming from his ribs.

"Let me help you" Ryeowook said and helped him dress up.

"I hate this. I feel fucking useless " Sungmin said. "I'm supposed to be the man in the relationship. "

"And you still are. " Ryeowook assured. " But sometimes you just need to seat down and let me help you."

" I love you" Sungmin said looking at Ryeowook with sincere eyes.

"I love you too" Ryeowook said and pecked his lips. Sungmin grabbed the crutches and walked out of the bathroom. After the picked the medication up and checked out, they went straight home and to their rooms tirelessly. Ryeowook helped Sungmin lie down in bed and puts his crutches aside.

"I'll see you tomorrow morning. " Ryeowook said.

"Sleep with me tonight " Sungmin said.

"What day is it? " Ryeowook asked and checked the calendar " Thursday... Well I can use my 'you need to sleep with me' card now that tomorrow's our last day and we can sleep together "

Sungmin smiled and Ryeowook lied next to him. They lied next to each other, Ryeowook delicately wrapped his arms around his waist and lied his head on his chest without putting dead weight.

"What's wrong?" Sungmin asked.

"What? Why do you ask that?" Ryeowook said surprised.

"I feel that there's something wrong. Is the energy in you" Sungmin explained. 

"You're right. I'm feeling depressed."Ryeowook said.

"Why?" Sungmin said.

"I don't even know why. Sometimes I just wake up and ask myself why am I here? " Ryeowook answered with a sigh. "I just don't find myself a reason to wake up from my dead slumber "

"Well every time you feel like that, think of me. " Sungmin said. "Let me be your reason to wake up in the morning. "

" But look where that got you. I almost killed you just because I was feeling sore. " Ryeowook said. "If it weren't for me, you obviously would have gotten to work earlier like you always did. And if you have gotten to work earlier, the car wouldn't have hit you"

"But if it weren't for you, my life will only be about work. You saved me, Wookie. And I hope you realize that and if not...I have all years to demonstrate it do you."

"Let me show you something " Ryeowook said and sat up. He turned on the lamp and rolled his sleeves up and his pajamas pants off. In his wrists and thighs were cuts. They weren't deep so they couldn't be seen that much.

"Oh My God! Ryeowook...Since when?" Sungmin asked surprised. His fingers lingered over the cuts.

"Since I was 15. The newest one was this one" He said pointing to the one of his upper thigh. " It was a day before my first day."

"B-but...Why?" Sungmin asked.

" I felt like crap, Sungmin. I was bullied and there was no one there for me. I attempted suicide twice and I still felt empty. And there's sometimes when I still do" Ryeowook said. "I just felt like I needed to tell you"

A tear fell in one of Ryeowook's cuts so he looked up and saw Sungmin with tears in his eyes. Looking st the cuts with a sad expression.
"Sungmin..." Ryeowook trailed off.

"It just hurts to know I'm not enough" Sungmin said still not looking at Ryeowook.

"You are enough. You're more than enough and when I say sometimes I still do is when you're not here beside me. Knowing there's someone out there better than me and you might pick him...it just troubles me sometimes" Ryeowook said. "Sungmin, look at me" Ryeowook said and Sungmin looked up at his face but still not straight at his eyes. He grabbed his chin forcefully and made their eyes meet.

"How can you think so low of me?" Sungmin asked. His voice was shaky and unsure.

"I don't think low of you. I think low of myself." Ryeowook said. " I can never be enough for you. You deserve so much better and I just don't understand why do you pick me when there's thousand of guys better than me"

"How can I not noticed them before?" Sungmin asked himself. "I've seen you naked over a million times and touched your thighs and wrist and felt nothing "

"When you don't know they're there, you can't feel them" Ryeowook said. " And I wear waterproof Concealer. "

"I don't want you hurting yourself anymore " Sungmin said. Ryeowook cleaned his tears and nodded. " Promise me you won't "

"I promise" Ryeowook said. He puts his Pajama pants on again and rolls his sleeves down.

"I'm glad you trust me enough to tell me this" Sungmin said.

"I'm glad I told you" Ryeowook said turning off the lamp and lying back down. "You're the first one I ever told"

"Thank you" Sungmin said and kissed his forehead. They fell asleep after a few minutes. It's been a long day...