Miss Shuhada

Miss shuhada.

You're a butterfly indeed.
What a beautiful creature but can't see her own beauty
How I wish you can see yourself, through my eyes. 
Let me try to put into words why do I fell in love with you.

Your weird perks
You have the most uncommon food combo ever
You always makes my tummy and cheeks hurts from laughing.
But I find it cute and I still love you.

Your nerdy side.
Oh crushie,  I can't help my fangirl heart.
My heart flutters when you're being nerd in front of your computer.
You program stuff that I dont even have a single urge to do it on my own.
So I rather stare at you my girl.

Your kind heart.
It feels so unreal.
Too matured perspective, too understanding heart.
You're a combination of a forgiving heart and strong mind.
Im not saying you're the kindest person i know.
Because you have your fair share of attitude,  unconsistency and crazy mood swings.
But sometimes your kindness is too good to be true.

Your maturity, I love it.
You taught me a lot of things.
That we can't fall as sleep until we're not okay.
That trust is really important than jealousy.
Your Hot and cold mantra.
When the other person is hot make sure be the cold one and vise versa.

How you choose to understand things.
Im the most messed up person when I'm stressed out.
I used to be the most jealous bitch ever( im trying to control it tho)
But you choose to undestand it.
Sometimes I question if you were real, if it's still real.
And i guess I'm right,  you don't need to act to understand it all.
Because I'll be okay and I'm here to catch you too.

When you're vulnerable.
This is what I love the most.
When I can enter your mind and heart.
When your not being your composed self.
I can see your fears, you choose yourself rather than to understand eveyone.
You're ranting your thoughts,  your pain.
Its a rare scenario but it does exist
And I promise to catch you everytime you need it.
Always.

I love you.

-jea( your curious cat)