I have fallen in love with one specific Filipino man and it sucks because I don't know if he likes Black girls.
I mean I can physically see him anyway cause he lives in a different state and cause of Rona but still it's nice to dream.
And OH MY KINKS he's a switch and I have never wanted to have a sub as much as I want him. I didn't even consider the possibility of having a mommy kink until him.
But once again he may not even like Black girls and if he does he may not even like me.
The unrealistic standards I have given myself only become more because I just want him. And I know that I'm setting myself up for "heartbreak" (quotations because I've never met him or held a conversation with him to have literally fallen in love with him, it's just an exaggeration of how much I adore him) if I find out he doesn't like Black girls and when I find out that I know he doesn't like me.
But you know what I am gonna manifest good energy in the world so that good things come my way and hopefully even if he doesn't like me, I still will have had the opportunity to meet him.
You guys, he is such a sweetheart. I just wanna meet a sweetheart like him or is him someday.
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Thoughts and Ramblings of Me
PoesíaSooo this is more like a diary of sorts. Just a way to clear my head. You're welcome to read but it probably won't entertain you much.
