Thoughts and Ramblings of Me

19 Jul 20 04:46

I have two things. I get the depressing shit out of the way first.
1. I haven't been feeling the best. I know that I need to cry but I won't let myself cause I feel like it's pointless. This feeling is only going to come back and I can't keep crying over nothing.

I don't even know why I feel like this. I mean I have some idea but not a specific trigger to pinpoint I guess.

I really need to see a therapist when I can afford one.

Annnnnd now that that is out of the way.

2. My sister turned me into a kpop Stan. I truly only know like 3 songs from BTS but I know that I like the people behind the music. Especially Jimin. (I hope I'm spelling their names right)

When I found out about his "situation" I really felt him. I felt that I could relate to him. And that's probably why I avoided kpop for as long as I did because I felt I couldn't relate to any of the artists because I didn't know what they were saying. Obviously that was an ignorant thing to do.

I'm learning I promise.

Now I am in love entirely with RM! My sister and I fight over this cause she loves him too but I was born first. I don't care if I did come late to the party. He's mine now. I live for the friendship between Jimin and Jungkook (and I lowkey wish they were a couple). And V is just amazing to look at with his bratty self.

I also kind of like Stray Kids. I've only listened to like 3 songs by them so I need to explore more in my own. But I absolutely love God's Menu like the basic bitch that I am. 😂

I really like Hyunjin, Bangchan, Felix, and Jisung (really hope I spelled their names right once again).

My current goal is to learn the dance from God's Menu cause let's be honest. That dance is fucking amazing.

Anyway it's a minute from 5am and I haven't been to sleep yet so see ya next time.