As I walked down the driveway I sighed. Hopefully today would be better or at least different.
As I walked to school every step I took filled me with dread.
When I got onto the busy main road there were lots of people on their way to school. Girls with their short skirts and perfectly straight hair. Everyone was walking with friends. I was alone. I walked feeling self conscious smoothing down my hair every two seconds.
When I arrived at school the bell for registration went. I went into the classroom and took my seat in the middle of the classroom.
My registration class was filled of gorgeous girls. There was Diamond who although wasn't skinny looked hot all the time with her long ,straight brown hair and Bella with her short blond hair and stick thin body. All the girls in my registration class were different shapes and sizes. They were all beautiful. Unlike me.
As the bell went for 1st period I was felt sick. I had PE.
I walked downstairs and into the changing rooms in the PE corridor.
I got changed in a corner on my own.
" OMG look how fat I'm getting " Bella gasped looking in the mirrors. " At least you've not got thunder thighs " Diamond said slapping her thighs.
I felt like going over there and slapping both of them.
I'd kill to look like them.
As the girls in the changing rooms got undressed I watched. Not in a perverted way but to see if they had any flaws , not to judge them on , but to boost my self esteem.
Nothing not a single flaw. They were all so perfect.
Lucky bitches.
I hated how comfortably they all undress in-front of each other. I hate the idea of even taking my clothes off in the shower.
After we were all changed we lined up outside the games hall. A small blond woman came over with a class of boys.
" Today we Will be doing paired dancing " the blond woman said " So boys pick a girl "
I hated paired dancing I was always picked last or was stuck with the ugliest boy. Of course all the boys wanted to dance with the popular girls. They got the hottest boys. I stood there praying to be asked , but I didn't. I sat on a bench at the side feeling ugly and disappointed. Why did no one want to dance with me ?
Its not like I'm a bad dancer in fact dancing's the one thing I am actually good at.
When I'm dancing I feel confident , beautiful even. As soon as I slip on my ballet slippers I feel like a different person. A better person. The person I want to be all the time.
As the music started and everyone started dancing I sighed. I wish I was up there everyone was looking like they were having so much fun.
" Sorry I'm late " I heard a voice call followed by the slamming of the hall doors.
I looked around. The person who has just came into the hall was a tall boy with tanned skin and black hair. He came over and sat on the bench next to me. Wow he smelled great. I turned my head to look at him. He was looking at me. Crap !!! He seen me looking at him. Wait ...why was he looking at me ?
" Are you OK ? " he asked.
" Umm yeah I'm fine. " I lied.
" OK. why aren't you dancing ? " he asked.
" None of your business ! " I snapped " I'm sorry I didn't mean It to come out so rude " I apologised.
" It's OK. You're feisty. I like it " he laughed nudging me.
I wasn't sure if it was a compliment but I giggled anyway.
" So can you answer my question with biting my head off " he asked.
" I did not ... " I stopped.
He winked at me.
" No one wanted to dance with me " I said fiddling with the strings on my hoodie.
He stood up. " Ill dance with you " he smiled reaching out his hand.
I laughed.
" How is that funny ? " he said raising an eyebrow.
" Oh were you being serious ? " I blushed.
" Uh ... Yeah. Obviously " he said. " So come on " he said ushering me up.
I stood up and put my hand on his shoulder and he put his hand on my waist.
" I can't dance " he said stepping on my foot.
" I can see that " I giggled looking down at my foot.
He just laughed.
" It's OK ill lead " I said putting my hands on his waist.
" I bet you say that to all the new boys " he winked.
" Nah , just the ones who are bad dancers " I winked.
" You have insulted me now. I'm going to go home and cry myself to sleep. " he said looking sad.
" Haa !! " I laughed.
" First day at a new school and I get insulted by a random stranger this should be fun " he smiled.
" I'm not random. I'm Miranda " I smiled.
" I'm Jay " he said.
" Is that short for Jason ? " I asked
" Nope "
" Jaymie ? "
" No. It's just Jay " he laughed.
" Pleased to meet you Just Jay " I giggled.
" Ahh your smart " he winked.
" Yeah. Are you surprised ? " I asked.
" No. Most nice girls are smart " he smiled.
I blushed and looked at the floor.
When I looked back up Jay smiled at me. I looked into his eyes. They were a gorgeous dark brown.
The song man-eater by Nelly Furtardo came on. Obviously someone in the class switched the cd. I looked at the teachers , they were too engrossed in their conversation to care.
When the song got to the chorus a few girls in my class started doing some really slutty dancing in the middle of the hall. All the boys assembled around them and wolf whistled. I looked at Jay. He was watching.
" You can go watch the show if you want " I sneered.
" Id rather stay over here with you " he smiled.
I blushed and so did he.
" Alright class time to go get Changed " the teacher called turning off the music player.
I walked towards the exit to the hall but Jay grabbed my wrist.
" What are you doing at lunch. Do you want to come with me to get some coffee ? "
" I can't. I promised my friend Hillary I'd go to the library with her to study. Sorry " I said.
" OK. Tomorrow ? " he asked. .
" We'll see " I said turning around and walking away feeling quite sexy , a feeling I hadn't felt in a long time.
