Sonadow (Sad love story) ~JUST LET ME DIE!~

🖤Chapter 1: Careless Mind🖤

(Shadow's POV)
I feel alone...
I feel like no one cares for me...
What if...
I were to die..?
What would happen..?
I lie in my bed, hopeless of anything and everything. Ever since Maria's death, harassment from individuals I thought I could trust, and self hate, I can't...deal with it anymore...I just feel like killing myself just to make the pain go away.

Sweet lord of God help me...

I've caught feelings for the blue hedgehog, but...I feel he doesn't like me back...I've told Tails about everything and he said he supports my feelings for Sonic. As much as I hate fox boy, he's a good friend to talk about my feelings with.

Either way, I still feel as if I see sarcasm...
Why..?
I don't understand...

I heard my front door knock, and before I knew it, I heard the cocky blue hedgehog's voice.

"Shads! You in there buddy? Come onnnnnnnnn! Don't leave me here impatient!"

I mentally chuckled. He sounded cute sounding so impatient. He sounded like a kid who wanted candy so desperately. I loved it. "Yeah Sonic, I'm home. I'm coming right now." I replied, acting exhausted and sleepy. I walked out of my room. I opened the door and saw Sonic in his usual mood. "I was thinking Shadow, wanna go hang out with Tails and Knucklehead?" Sonic asked. A wide grin spread across his face. Little did he know the red echidna heard everything.

"I HEARD THAT SONIC! DON'T MAKE ME PUNCH YOUR SPEEDY ASS TO THE SKY!!!" Knuckles boomed. Sonic ran away from an angry Knuckles, crying of laughter. I laughed as Tails chased after the two of them. "KNUCKLES RELAX! DON'T KILL HIM!" Tails laughed out while chasing after Knuckles. "HE CALLED ME KNUCKLEHEAD! I HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO KILL HIM!" Knuckles replied to the small yellow fox. I continued to laugh at the three.

"Are we gonna hang out or whatever?" I asked. The three eventually stopped. "Oh yeah I forgot." Sonic chuckled. "We was gonna head to the park. Wanna come?" A glow of please sparkled in his eyes. "Heh sure." I replied while rolling my eyes. I didn't really want to go but I didn't want to leave the desperate blue hedgehog.

I have to keep him happy.
I must...do everything right...
...no matter what the cost...

Once we arrived at the park, Tails and Knuckles joked around with me, making me laugh. These two idiots were nice to talk to. Sonic was in a tree eating a chili dog, like usual, in his deep thought. I always wondered what he thought about...But I'll leave him alone.

I then felt hands push me on the floor...

"Hey there edgy hedgy. How are you doing?" A voice cackled. I looked up and saw a green hedgehog with a nasty grin.

...I'm done...

"Hello Scourge..." I said under my breath while getting up. I was then pushed on the floor again. "Oh don't think you can just walk away like that Shadow! I ain't done with you." He said while giving me a death stare. I then saw the blue hedgehog push him away. "Leave him alone Scourge! He did nothing to you!" Sonic growled.  My eyes widened in surprised as I saw the two counterparts fight. "Why you protecting him eh blue blur?! He's nothing but a gay edgy freak!" Scourge boomed. Sonic's eyes glowed green of rage...I saw him breath extremely heavily. I immediately ran back to my house, choking back so many tears...

I kicked the door to my room open an threw myself to a corner in my room. My mind ached while I remembered the words Scourge called me...

How did he know I was gay..?
Am I really a freak..?
How much more insults do I have to count..?

I grumbled so many insults my mind came up with, just to torture myself.

I can't help it...torture is my only friend...
My mind is my only provider of torture...
It's as if...
I was born to be tortured...
To be a punching bag...
It's also as if...
No one even cares for me...

I'm just Shadow
Shadow the Hedgehog
A black hedgehog who is nothing but an emo, careless, depressed hedgehog...

Who has feelings for the blue hedgehog...