It's 2:31am and I just finished doing an event in my damn mobile game. I'm part of a mid sized guild which was composed of 46+ people. Even though we regularly get our assets kicked in group player vs player (PvP) events. I don't really mind because earlier in the year we couldn't participate in these events.
I saw that guild grow from 20 weak members to a mid sized and mid strength guild that it is today. I don't play the game as much as enjoy interacting with members of the guild. But it that really isn't the reason why I'm writing this down.
I feel empty, I'm almost done with my Master's in Business Administration (MBA), I have a beautiful loving wife, family that loves me, a best friend that would happily commit a genocide to make me happy but I feel empty.
No, I am not suicidal and I have never been diagnosed with depression or other mental issues. I just feel empty, it isn't for a lack of trying, the feeling goes away when I immerse my self in work, studies, chores, games and reading.
It's blah, it's a cold pit below my heart rising spreading into my extremities and it never really goes away. Even when I am happy, it's right there. It's always one quiet moment away from resurfacing.
Anyway, gonna get some sleep... Goodnight.
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Diary Of An Empty Person
RandomNothing here but the rantings of a semi functional lunatic.
