Feel like a Loser || Reddie Fanfiction (boyxboy)

Chapter 8

"You are so stupid Eddie and I'm very sad that i was friend with someone like you , you hurt me but now I'm happy after all with Connor and you can't do nothing to change that we are one made for the other! You are absolutely nothing to me"

Richie's voice made circles in Eddie's mind. Obviously he hadn't said something like that but Eddie thought that his feelings were identical. He couldn't sleep more and he needn't the same. It was 11 am in the morning he had slept like 6 hours but he was feeling good. Not so good to go outside and meet his friends again , not so good to go outside see his friends without Richie and mostly he wasn't prepared to see his friends and Richie.

He decided that he has to stay home for a few days (more specifically 3 days) for think about what is right and what is wrong. He didn't know why he cares so much or he just didn't know how to describe that.

Those were very hot days , i would say the hottest summer days so far. Eddie didn't want to look at the window. No matter how hard he tried, he couldn't take his eyes off the window. He hoped to see Richie knock the glass and asking Eddie to come in.

Mike visited him some times , although that he had suggested to leave him alone at any rate Eddie pretended that he wasn't home. Beverly didn't some but Eddie was sure that she was trying to explain what was going on with this bitch , Connor. Eddie's mother didn't stop call him. He wanted to eavesdrop the facts and she always rang him every 15 minutes. She worried so much about her Eddie boy and if he got his pill which he doesn't always do but that's ok , everyone knew that some of them aren't even necessary.

Many people will say that 3 days are not much for someone to do productive things but ,except all those thoughts , Eddie  also: started writing lyrics (to be honest all of us can guess what those lyrics related to). He won't ever saw them to somebody but it was very relaxing to write his thoughts and feelings. And he search on their warehouse where he found many old things that had owned to his mother or probably his father before he died. There were tickets , clothes (which were actually too cool , a fact that surprised Eddie for real), decoration things and others.

He wasn't eating so much and that's the reason why he was a little bit more weak than usually.

If anybody got to his home , he would feel dysphoria because of the suffocating atmosphere ,that had been created by the fact that the the heat was unbearable and because Eddie didn't want to catch up the window and that had as a result that he couldn't open it.

For first time in Eddie's life his room was messy and dirty. That wasn't a problem because as he had counted he could clean it before his mothers return in 3 days.

After all Eddie concluded that obviously Connor is a piece of shit but if he wanted to compare with him , he should play a similar game.