Never want to find love

Part 5

Danielle P.O.V

I felt I was in shock,... I felt numb, weakened ,....my eyes fluttered, not fully closed and not fully open. I felt the shock with causes my body to tremble with the want of his. I felt numb to the uninviting touch of his lips upon mine.

I felt weak with the need I feel. But then I felt pain, when my lips dance against  his. I felt my loss, the lost that never leaves. I felt his want, the want that I cannot give.

And then I was brought back. I pushed him away. I stared out behind him.

What was that... that feeling?  I asked myself. Looking up at him I wonder if he may have done something else to me. 'Like what?' my brain questioned. Raising my right hand I slapped him with anger.

"Why the hell did you kiss me?" I spit out in raging fury, has he use his left hand to rubbing the cheek I had just slapped. I could still feel the numbness as if it was an imprint he left upon me.

But I didn't want him to see the affect he had on me. " I don't... I.. I don't know" he stuttered out sounding confused.

He doesn't know... really? 
"What the hell do you mean you don't know why you kiss me?"
This his the best answer he could come up with.  He doesn't know. So much more infuriating.

Did he really just stutter or is he acting. He must be acting, I thought.  "It won't work on me so stop acting." I shouted in anger.

Lifting in my hand to slap him again he caught it and pulled me into him. Then  whispered
" You I've already slapped me once,  do you really think I'm going to let you slap me again?"

"Let go of my hand and you'll find." I said through the grit of my teeth.
"What part of I dont have feelings for you, didn't you not understand." I said looking straight into his eyes.

Pulling my body out of his arms, I step back with my arms crossed. I started walking away, but stopped and look at him. " And stay away from me." I said sternly before turing my back to him.

After finishing my run, I went home and took a shower. Throughout my whole run I couldn't seem to get my mind off that stupid kiss.

The growling of my belly brought me to realize that I haven't eaten anything since breakfast, looking at the time and it was well pass lunch. 1:23 p.m.

After preparing a salad I grab my phone to call my mom while eating.

Waiting as the phone rang I wondered how I was going to tell her about the days events without her thinking I was making some sillly joke.

"Hello my darling, how are you are you?" My mother cheerful voice sounded through the phone speaker.

" Hey mom I'm okay you got some news for you." I reply dragging my words.

I thought for a minute if I had to tell, but I know she would want to know. But
I also knowing she's would be worrying about me about me.

"Oh .... that doesn't sound like good news." Mom said, the sadness could be heard through the phone. If I had taught that telling her would be a good idea, I am  definitely rethinking telling her now.

Her sadness can already be heard and I haven't even told her the truth yet.  "Mom..... Well ... I sigh, its so hard to make her sad.

"Mom actually I got a new job that all, nothing to worry about." I said smiling as if she could see me and be reassure.

"Ok, so what happened with the job you just stared?" She ask sounding a little worried.

"Well I got fir- let go so I could get this new job."
I said squeezing my eyes shut as if to wish my mom didn't hear me almost seen I got fired.