So. I had a dream last night. (Yes, i am capable of sleep. Apparently.)
The basic summary of it was that my bff, kei, and some other of her friends entered my school. They where a year under me because my stupid ass subconscious brain decided to merge the school system in France with the British one, and since I live in a desert, I was in the french one. Since they where from England, they ended up in a the younger class. The reason why I didn't know about their attendance to the school was because they usually separated different classes. Idk why, but in my dream they did.
Now, during recess (or perhaps the changing of classes) I stumbled into them. They barely remembered me. I spent the entire flucking dream trying to make my existence apparent to them. Yeah, that's says a lot about me to say the least. Especially since it was semi-lucid.
I skipped classes, missed after school activities, didn't have lunch or breakfast the next day simply because they where the only friends I remembered having, well that was in the dream, at least. When I woke up, I realised that the group of friends kei was with where actually my old bullies. Proof of how flucking niave I am and was.
The funniest thing about this dream was that it ended with them all kicking me. Oh— and the last fish i had left, sparky, died. (She's okay though, for now at least).
In reality, I'm on okay terms these guys and we've moved on from the crap they put me through. They didn't apologise, they never apologised. But its not like i hate them. In the end, its my fault for being their little play toy.
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Again, this probs made no sense. I dont really proof read theses and at this point i have enough to deal with as it is. Good day yall.
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