My brother is Luke Hemmings

chapter 9

I feel rubbish im stressed out because im going back to school tomoz boo

Michaels pov

I dont know how to ask Katy out on a date but im worried that if i do she woukd be insecure about being seen with me because of who I am.

I want her to be comfortable arround me before i ask her.

I wouldnt break her heart though

A) Luke would kill me

B) shes been through so much

C) shes broken and i dont know if Beth and Luke would be able to fix her

Beth wals in with a cup of tea for me, Ash and Calum , Luke walks in with his cup of tea and a banana milkshake for Katy ive noticed that all she really has is bananas and i dont know if she just loves them or if its because of her eating disorder because when she came if she had banana chips.

Shes so slim but its not a natural slim its too slim you can see her collar bones and each of her ribs.

I think im going to ask luke if i can take Katy on a date before i ask her myself because if luke approves then its all good.

Katys pov

I can scense everybody is going to treat me diffrently now the only one who wont is beth because she already knew.

I got my headphones and iphone out of my rucksack that has a load of one direction badges on it in the bottom of my bag i see a razor in there (a/n the stuff thats in italics is either thoughts or text messages carry on reading)
Your a worthless cow
Your family hates you
You should be dead
You diserve everything that has happend to you
Your fat

I grabbed the razor and ran into the bathroom i pulled up my hoodie sleeves and sliced my lest wrist 14 times and my right wrist 18 times crying my eyes out i cleaned my wrists off I was starting to feel dizzy i unlocked the door and started stumbeling down the stairs.

Everybody must have heard me because they all ran towards the steps Ashton , Beth and Luke pushed past Michael and Calum and grabbed my wrists i flinched because of how tight they held my wrists because the held onto my fresh cuts and made yhem start bleeding again

Luke must have felt the blood through my hoodie because he let go of my wrist and pulled up my sleeves.

Beth gasped Luke was shocked I couldnt look at the rest of them because I knew that i disapointed them I broke my promise to Beth i swore to her i wouldnt do this again.

Ash broke the scilence "Katy why did you do this "

Luke looked up from where he was sitting.

"Ashton do you want to know why its because you made me tell all of you about my past and now matter how hard i try ive always had to go back to the memories all of the pain of the past i cant escape it i cant do it anymore i tell people im fine but im really not fine" im sobbing hysterically now .

Lukes pov

I cant belive katy has relapsed because Ashton asked her about the past he should have known to not ask her until she was comfortable with us.

I swear if this happens again im going to beat his arse.

Shes my little sister im going swiming ill see if anybody else want to come im only mainly asking because i want to see beth.

1 hour later

Me Beth, Katy, Ash and Michael are all going to the pool.

I got changed into my black trunks and met evrybody downstairs once we got to the pool i couldnt help but stare at beth shes gorgous