Painting on my canvas

Lonely💫

🐯Pov-

I am back..!!

I am finally back...!!!

I touched my canvas paper which was hanging on the board..!!

I miss you i really do..!!

How it feels..!! My heart was about to explode not bcz the deal btween me and saint but becz i am finally going to start painting..!! When i touched the brush and saw the colors i teared up not bcz i was allergic to something but because i fucking miss this..!! The canvas who were my imagination..The brush which was my kid...!! The paints the only things which gave me happiness..!! Somewhat i am about to explode....!!I kept that brush and ran out of my painting i am soo how i am gonna do that..!!

Thousand bloody thoughts was running in my mind..!! I really want to do that but i cannot..!! I dont know what is stopping me the family pressure the weakness i had in my mind after seeing Paint...

Thats you fuckin love tanapon do it..!!

I went to that..!! I feel soo lonely i sobb...i...

BunnybunchCalling-
HeyTiger...

🐯Hey....

🐉Are you okay..!! What happen..

🐯I am fine i just..

🐉Shut up tell me what happen..

🐯I cannot do this saint..!! I..(sob)...It has been fuckin years..I left everything i promised myself not to do this i..(sob)..

🐉But Perth..

🐯I left painting becz my family want to..They fell hurt..(sob)..whenever i paint..!!
When i was small they beat me..(sob)..Whenever i touch the br(sob)ush..How i (sob) the memories are coming back..!! The pain..(sob)...they kept me hungry..(sob)..when i dint get good marks..!! They still hate..(sob) me bcz i am arrogant i..,(sob) i am so lonely saint (sob) i cannot even do this i (sob) mmmhh...

I cut the call and lie myself on the floor my heart is weak i dont know why i feel like i just took off a big stone from my heart..Dont know what saint is now thinking about me ..!! While thinking about saint i sept there......

🐉POV-

I was soo happy the assignments went good the uni went good..!! LEMME call perth what he is doing..!! Hehe..!! Definately preparing for the painting..!!

When i called him and heard his voice it feels like something is really strange..He is crying....

When he told me about his parents and everything ..!! I thought a lightening suddenly stroke in my heart and i fell on the ground..

OhMyGod...

How can i force him to do something like this which is hurting him soo much..!!
I ran to bus stop and took the bus towards his house...

When i reached his house..

Perrrrthhhh..(sob)...

Perthhhh..(sob)..

I am (sob) sorry..!! Where are you..Where are youuu...??

Suddenly i ran to his painting room and i found him sleeping ...

OhMyHeart..!!

His eyes are puffed he cried alot..!! He is burning..!! Oh my god...!! He has fever...!! He has been two days we dint meet and he has oh my god..!!

I took him in my arms and carried him out of that room and make his lie on his sofa..

🐯Saint . ..??

Huhhh..??

His eyes are closed how did he know that..

I went to the painting room took his phone and

He was seeing my picture..!!

I ran out and hugged him..!!

Perth..!! I am sorry..!! I made you do that..! I made you sick.m!! I...

🐯Shuhhhh....Why are you blaming yourself and go away from me you will catch fever..

🐉You know what NO i am not going anywhere and i am gonna take care of you...!! Fuck that painting and all i dont want anything i...

He kept his fingers on lips..

🐯Help me to overcome from this Help me to again start my painting ..!! Please

🐉But..i..

🐯Like i helped you mix colors you will help me to paint again..!! I really want to do it for you for me and to jot feel lonely..

🐉Use that Lonely word again and i will never come back..!!

🐯But i...

🐉I am always with you always..!! You are not lonely..!! You have me..!!

I kissed his forehead and he smiled...

🐯If i was not sick i had kissed you on your lips..

🐉Shut up and have some sleep..!!I am here with you..!!

And he drifted to his sleep like a baby in my arms..!!

AUTHORS NOTE
*Loneliness can definately kill you from inside..!! Talk to your parents..Friends..if you have no one to talk i am here for you tell me what happen if i can i will help you and thats a PROMISE PEOPLE*

people...!!
Dont kill me😅
Moments are coming very soon but some emotional things are always necessary in life bcz it is the part of your life..!!
Loveyouall staysafe..💫🥀
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