Unbreakable Bond | SOPE

7

I would be lying if I said anxiety was the only thing keeping me up at night. My mind has been crazy.

I keep staring at the card, something is telling me that what the man is saying, is very important.

Like when he told me we weren't bonded....something just....clicked? Like I knew he was right.

But Hoseok wouldn't do that to me and he wanted me to be bonded, I know that. Why else would he still love me after I practically used him for revenge.

But if it came out to be that we really weren't bonded then..... then I- I wouldn't even know what to do.

Or how I would feel none the less. I'm thinking to much, maybe I should go and confront him?

Like even if it's a lie then at least I know, right? I'd rather ask and him get mad at me for even believing someone's words then for it to be true and I'll never know.

I take a deep breath and look at the time, Hoseok gets out of his meeting in 3 hours and I don't have work today.

So when he gets home, I'll break the question to him, just like that. I need to know what's true.

I could be an idiot for believing someone I don't know or who doesn't even know Hoseok but it's plaguing my mind to much and causing me a lot of anxiety.

So for the rest of the day I decide to clean the house and make food for dinner. I'm still going to treat it like a normal day.

If I don't then my anxiety will peak again, I need to be calm when I ask the question.

3 hours go by as if they were only 30 minutes. I sit myself at the dinner table and wait for him. Not long after he comes in with smiles.

"Hey sweetheart." He comes over and kisses my head, he grabs a plate and grabs some dinner, sitting right infront of me.

Just as he's about to dig in the anxiety hits, shit fuck fuck fuck fuck shit ahhh come on! You got it, say it... say it.

"What's wrong? Are you not eating." I swallow hard and just speaking while looking down.

"We need to talk." Hoseok stops everything. He drops his fork and looks straight at me. "What's wrong? Is everything ok."

I slowly nod. "Recently I got some news." He just nods, never breaking eye contact.

"I got news that.....well you see someone told me....I- UGH! I found out that we aren't really bond and I wanted to ask if it's true."

I quickly let the sentence flow out of me as I fearfully wait for his response. It's just quite.

"Who told you?" I look up at him in shock. "Who told yo-" I can feel tears wanting to fall "Are we not bonded?"

Hoseok just stares at me "Who to-" I abruptly stand up "ARE WE. NOT BONDED." Hoseok just watches as tears fall from my face.

"Yoongi look, it's not what you think, I-" I just break down. "You what? Don't love me? Don't want to bond with me? I'm so pathetic that you don't want me for the rest of your life and that lying to me about the bond was the best thing?"

Hoseok stands up and try's to walk to me "Baby look, I can't bond with you." I push him off and stare into his eyes.

"You can't? Or you won't." I push past him and grab a few things.

"Where are you going?" I stop at the door "Maybe if we were bonded, you would know." I slam the door behind me and leave.