Spaces

4: No Control

I take in the sight around me. There are at least 200 people in my house right now, and thats not including my back yard. It's already nine o'clock and I haven't gotten drunk yet. I walk over to a lone bottle of liquor and fill my cup all the way to the rim. I take a sip and feel a stinging sensation go through my veins. It's not mine, someone must have brought it. I look over to Sean, Ariana, and Jones who are waving for me to come join them. I push my way through some people to get to their drunk selves. I plop myself down on the couch next to Jones. He puts his arm around me. He's definitely drunk, but I'm ok with this. There are a few other people in our little circle, people that I've never even seen before. I take my fifth sip from the unknown substance in my cup. It's actually really good. Now I can feel myself starting to lose my control. I look at Jones and smile for some reason that I don't know. He smiles back at me and we just keep on staring at each other for a few seconds until a boy across from me with blond hair speaks up.

"Hey guys lets play truth or dare." He says. I notice he has an Irish accent. I look at Sean and Ariana and they nod their heads. I just follow their answer.

"Yeah!" I say, knowing exactly what's going to happen. Ariana is going to dare me to do something with Jones. I smile at the thought. This alcohol is taking me out of myself and putting a whole new person in. But I like it. 

"Alright. Oh wait!" The drunk blond boy says. "My friend Zayn is almost he-" He says. Zayn? Where have I heard that name. Right when the blond boy is almost finished speaking, a tall and dark boy walks up to the group. Where do I recognize his face from? I stare at him for a little and then he looks at me. The mini-mart. It's Zayn, the boy who goes to NAU. I smile and involuntarily point at him. 

"Hey, I know you." I say. God what is in this drink? I would never say that if I was sober. He raises his eye brows.

"Do you now?" His thick British accents asks me. I nod and pat the couch space next to me.

"Come, sit." I say. What am I doing? I can't stop myself from being stupid it seems. He laughs but obeys and takes a seat next to me. I smile at him once more and then the Irish boy speaks up.

"You guys know each other?" He asks. Zayn looks from me to him.

"Yeah, barely. I checked her out at the mini-mart the other day." He says and winks at me. I laugh. Did he just wink after he said he checked me out? What does he mean by that? I look down, blushing. For some reason I feel Jones arm tighten around me. Is he jealous? Of a guy that I literally only talked to for five minutes? And plus we haven't even established that I think he's extremely attractive. I look at Jones and smile.

"I dare Jade and Jones to go outside alone for ten minutes." Ariana blurts out. I look at her. I knew it. This is so immature but it's a good way to get alone time with Jones. I look back at Jones and he takes his arm from around me and stands up, taking my hand instead. I let him lead me out back. The cold shocks me more that I would have expected, but I bare through it. I set my drink down on the barbecue right my back door, then walk with him over to the secluded part of the back yard. We make our way through the hedges and then sit on the bench in the middle. I look over to him. We're a few feet away. I scooch in a little bit, and so does he. Now we're only about six inches away from each other. He smiles.

"You're really beautiful, Jade." He says. I smile and look down shyly. "And even though we just met today, I feel like you have this like force that won't let me stop thinking about you..." He says. I giggle. I try to think of what to say to him, but I'm not very good at expressing emotions. 

"I thought I was the only one feeling that..." I say. His eyes lock with mine once I say that. I smile at the way the light reflects from his eyes, almost like the light is coming from them. For a few seconds we just stare into each others eyes...which we have done many times. But this is different. I feel like I can actually see into his eyes, see who he is and see what he wants...of course I can't actually see all of that, I just feel like I can.