Preferences || Erik Durm || Mats Hummels || Marco Reus

|9| Insecurities

Song : All of me ~ John legend

•Erik :
Your P.O.V
Me and Erik decided to go shopping together , I've been getting a lot of hate from Erik's fans recently .I don't blame them tho bc I feel them , seeing your celebrity crush ( specially mister Durm 😍 ) getting a girlfriend is the hardest thing you can ever go thru , trust me , seeing Liam Payne With Sophia smith wasn't easy for me.Anyway , Erik wanted to change my mood so he decided to take me shopping , you made the right decision Durm.But one problem , paparazzis and fans were everywhere pushing each other to get to Erik.Erik held my hand a squeezed it lightly , he knows I feel safe when we hold hands. And here comes a fan , crashing this romantic moment , Pushing me away from Erik. I got lost between the fans , I couldn't see Erik , All I saw was fans pushing me. I was okay , well not really , until fans started screaming : " Y/N is Uglyyyyyyyy "
"Ewwww look at that face"
" Y/N , don't you Ever vomit looking to your reflexion on the mirror ? "
" Loollll Erik ! you are way too hot for this ugly twig "
Am I that ugly ? I felt tears burning my eyes , as insecurities started growing inside me , I let a tear roll down my cheek.

Erik's P.O.V
I held y/n 's hand and then suddenly I couldn't feel her hand in mine. I looked around , and all I saw was fans pushing each other. "y/n !!!" I yelled . no answer
Where is she ? I know she is probably freaking out , its her first time dealing with hate. I heard fans screaming bad things to y/n , I know how insecure she can be. Why can't she see how beautiful she is ? I hate it when she believes what haters say to her. She is the type of person that never accepts compliments , but believes every single insult. I need to find her.
"Y/N !!!" I yelled again pushing thru the fans, here she is standing between the fans who are pushing her , tears were rolling down her cheeks.
" Y/N " I rushed to her hugging her as I tried walking out of the group of fans.
" Are you okay babe ? " I asked breathless
" Erik , why do you love me ? "
" What do you mean with 'why do you love me ? "
" I mean , you can get any girl you want , why do you choose me I'm ug-"
I cut her of by kissing her on the lips passionately.
" Y/N don't you ever say that again okay ? I love you , and nothing can stop me from that , you are beautiful"

Even when you're crying , you're beautiful too.

No answer.

" Y/N , listen to me , I don't wanna see you crying about the shit jealous people say , look at me " I pulled her chin up slowly
"You are beautiful no matter what they say , you are beautiful in every single way , words can't bring you down , no matter what they say you will always shine , y/n why can't you see how much you mean to me ? seeing you crying breaks me to bits and pieces "
" I love you " she wiped of her tears and a smile grew on her lips and she wrapped her arms around my neck and pulled me in for a kiss .
I turned around to see the fans clapping with the 'woooos' and stuff like that.
Later that day the fans that hated on Y/N came and apologized to her. I don't know how can she not see how freaking beautiful she is.

•Mats :
Your P.O.V

" Y/N c'mon what are you doing , it's been 30minutes since I told to come join me , I'm watching a great movie " I heard Mats calling from downstairs. I just took a bath and I'm probably not wearing any makeup and I wouldn't want mats to see my ugly face so I decided to put on concealer to hide the dark circles under my eyes , a little bit of blush because my face looks pale , and mascara. I hope mats doesn't notice that I wore makeup , I don't want him to know how insecure I am , and how scared I am of showing my natural face to him, my mom always told me that I look prettier without makeup , so did my friends , but I don't see that too bad. I've been dealing with insecurities since the age of 13 , I used to wear makeup everywhere I go, even when I go to bed , just to wake up In the morning to see a normal face when I look to the mirror.
" Coming " I shout back to mats
as I walk down the stairs , I see mats with a glass of water , I sit next to him and lay my head on his shoulder.