What use to be

The dream

I opened my eyes. The sight took my breath away, I'm in the woods. The trees created a circle around me, I couldn't see the sky. It's like the trees are trying to keep me in, or keep something out. I could hear everything around me, the birds singing, the wind blowing, the animals running. Then I heard a stick brake, and everything went silent. I turned to see where the noise came from and my eye connected with the bright green eyes of a pure white wolf. You could tell it was a female, by her confidence. She sat there and stared at me, but then she said something, she said "Zoey, my name is raven, and I'm" but then she stopped. Everything started to fade away. Then I woke up, I've been having dreams with that same wolf for 9 years,but now I know her name. She seems important to me, I just don't know why yet. It feels like I should know her, like I've seen her or something, but I just haven't. Its like shes connected to me, like she's trying to tell me something or warn me about something or someone, but that was the first time I heard her speak. You could say we've grown up together. I've watched her grow in my dreams, like u would with your pet. 

For years i had this numb feeling. Its like i don't care about anything, yet i feel like everything is gonna change. Im afraid that if i accept changing the world will consume me.