The Stripper's Insemination

Chapter 69

ELLE P. O. V

I clutched my blouse trying to wrap it around me, then i got up and sat on the edge of the bed looking petrified. I tried to get rid of the memories that had taken over to haunt my mind, Lucas sat there looking at me as if i had gone crazy.

"What going on Elle?" he asked.

"I....don't... think...i...can go through with his, i said crying.

"What do you mean Elle?" Today is our wedding night, you can't do this to me or is there something you are hiding from me he said.

I can't blame him if he is angry at me for leading him on, then falling apart at the crucial moment. He is probably regretting he had married me. "I'm..sorry..i'm so so sorry Lucas, i kept repeating it over and over again, i don't know what to do now, whether to tell him the truth or not.

LUCAS P. O. V

"Elle", i spoke her name alarmed by her behavior and the way she was covered over, obviously frightened by something. I slowly walk over to her, "Are you okay?" "What the matter huh?".

Why are you behaving like this all of a sudden, i know this is your first time but i promise i will not hurt you. Is that the reason why you are behaving like this huh.

"No! Lucas.

"Then what Elle, i touch her face trying to kiss her but she quickly stood up shouting loud "no! no! Lucas.

"Okay fine!, i will not touch you or try to kiss you i said.

"I'm sorry Lucas but i can't do it.

I was wondering why a young feisty woman i love and care so much had suddenly become a quivering wreck and seems absolutely petrified. I think something is wrong somewhere and i'm going to find out some how, i went over to her and hold her two hands firmly and not so hard that it will panicked her.

"Please Lucas don't be angry with me", she whimpered again. I wonder if someone hurt her in the past. She then bowed her head down covering her face crying.

"Look at me Elle?" i commanded her in a firm tone, she move her hands off her face. I'm not angry with you okay but I'm angry with what so ever thing that is worrying you now. I said with soothing tone, before urging.

"Okay let sat down first, now tell me what is the matter?

I'm sorry, i thought i had got over what happen with my....

"With what Elle?" Continue I'm listening, "I'm your husband for cried out loud Elle". I need to know what wrong with you, i will not judge you whatsoever is it my love. She then attempted to explained everything to me feeling shameful having to admit it.

"You are the first person i have been with since the kids where born....Lucas. It all started when....my....

"When your what, continue my love".

I'm a shame of myself Lucas.....he....hurt..me. "no! no!" i can't tell you Lucas, she said sobbing very loud.

"For Christ sake who hurt you Elle, tell me? I stood there looking at her shaking body. Whatever she went through is very difficult for her to say it to me, i went over to her and hug her tight.

"It okay love, i wipe all her tears.

I'm sorry Lucas, i did not want this to happen she said.

"It's okay, but please don't upset yourself like this anymore. I'm not mad at you.... I'm just trying to get my head around all this, you don't want to tell me what going on with you. Even to tell me who want to hurt you, but you ruined everything.