The Third Dixon [The walking dead]

Chapter fifteen

Measi sat besides Beth as she explained the gun to the other teenager. Beth asked her to help her understand more about fire arm in case it all went south. ''And than just squeeze.'' Beth nodded as she pulled the trigger, they didn't put any bullets in so they wouldn't alert nearby walkers, so there was only a small click. ''Perfect.'' 

''Can I ask you something?'' Measi nodded before she continued. ''How do you do it? When you shoot someone ... how can you do that?'' She shook her head as she stuttered. ''Not like -- like squeezing the trigger but, how?'' 

Measi pursed her lips together as she thought about the question. ''I try not to think, clear my mind except for the thought that I'm doing it with the reason to keep others safe, others I care about.'' she raised her shoulders slightly. ''Furthermore I fully clear my head, I don't think of anything else.'' She sighed as she took the gun from the other teen. ''Let's just hope it won't come to that.'' Beth nodded slightly as she got up from her spot, walking away from the brown head.  

With the war approaching quickly, Measi got more and more nervous, she was used to facing walkers, but she had never killed a living, breathing human being. After telling Beth a small lie of clearing her head, she felt guilty. She knew it was for the best that Beth had those thoughts in her head, but she still felt as if she shouldn't have told her the advice, it felt like lying. 

Nathan showed up behind her, hugging her from behind as he held her waist, planting a kiss on her cheek. ''You okay?''

''Just thinking.'' She replied as she turned herself around in his embrace, allowing his hands to stay around her waist. She smiled softly as she let her head rest against his chest, listening to the sound of his heartbeat. ''Did you ever --''

''One.'' She tilted her head up, frowning at him. ''I had to, he was going to shoot me, so I shot him first.'' She pursed her lips together in thought. 

''What was it like?'' He shrugged as he looked down, as she was a bit smaller than he was. 

''At first, it felt just like killing a walker ... him or me, survival.'' He let go of her waist, allowing himself to play with the bottom of her shirt. ''It was after that I started to feel guilty, after the adrenaline left my body, that's when I realized he had been alive a few moments ago ... and that I ended it.'' He took a deep breath as she held his hands in hers, comforting him in a small act. ''I kept telling myself, him or me ... and after a while I accepted it.'' He softly shook his head for a moment. ''I don't want to do it again, but I will if I have to.'' She gave a soft smile as she pulled him into an embrace.

''Thank you.'' She spoke up. ''For telling me -- kind of made me feel a bit better.''  He smiled as he pushed his arm around her shoulders, pulling her with him as she rested her head on his shoulder.

As they were walking, Daryl and Rick sped past them, leaving the two teenagers frowning. Measi looked at Nathan for a second as he nodded. ''Go.'' She gave him a wave before rushing after the two adults. 

''Said he was looking for drugs. Said a lot of things, actually'' She walked into the boiler room, knowing they were talking about Merle, as he was the only one who'd be looking for drugs in there. 

''Like what?''

''Said that you were gonna change your mind. Here we go.'' Measi frowned, change his mind about what. Rick shook his head at her, mouthing the word 'later' as Daryl knelt down. ''Yeah, he took her here. They mixed it up.''

''Damn it! I'm going after him.'' Rick cursed at himself, being stopped by Daryl. 

''You can't track for shit.''

''Then the both of us.''

''No, just me.'' Measi wanted to open her mouth, telling him she would go with him, but he beat her to it. ''No argument.'' he than turned back to Rick as he spoke again. ''I said I'd go and I'll go. Plus they're gonna come back here. You need to be ready. Your family, too.'' Measi frowned as he walked out of the room and into the outside world. 

''You gonna tell me what the hell is going on?'' She questioned Rick as she glared at him, blocking his way from going back in. ''Those are my brothers ... I deserve to know.'' He sighed as he nodded, giving a small 'yeah' as he started to tell the proposition the Governor had made him. 

Measi sat in the guard tower she was supposed to be in when the Governor and his army rolled into their house. She had her sniper to her eye as she sniped a couple of walkers, she needed to know for herself that she was able to snipe from the distance she was at. She wished she could have a closer guard tower, but the others were right, if she was set up in there, she could get killed in a matter of seconds. 

She pulled the trigger, missing the walker with a few inches, cursing at herself for missing it. she pulled another round, now hitting the walker. She sighed as she pulled the gun away from her eye, this was a walker, not ducking away after the first shot, the Governor would. She placed the gun back to her eye, rounding in another bullet and hitting another walker, this time hitting it with one shot. She did that a few more times before Rick stood under her tower. ''Measi, come on.'' 

''When I met with the Governor, he offered me a deal.'' Measi sat down between Beth and Nathan, earning a small smile from the other girl as she gave one back, resting her head against Nathan's shoulder. ''He said-- he said he would leave us alone if I gave him Michonne. And I was gonna do that... to keep us safe.'' The others looked at him accusingly, him quickly shaking his head at them. ''I changed my mind. But now Merle took Michonne to fulfill the deal and Daryl went to stop him and I don't know if it's too late.'' Nathan glanced at Measi as he pulled her closer into his side, trying to keep her mind off of Daryl.

''I was wrong not to tell you. And I'm sorry. What I said last year, that first night after the farm... it can't be like that. It can't. What we do, what we're willing to do, who we are, it's not my call. It can't be. I couldn't sacrifice one of us for the greater good because we are the greater good. We're the reason we're still here, not me. This is life and death. How you live... how you die-- it isn't up to me. I'm not your Governor. We choose to go. We choose to stay. We stick together. We vote.'' Measi gave a silent nod, she already knew what she wanted to do. ''We can stay and we can fight or we can go.'' He spoke up before he turned around, leaving the group thinking of the decision they had to make. 

so this chapter ended with Merle's death and Measi will find out in the next chapter from Daryl himself. I hope you enjoyed this chapter just as much as I did. Only one more chapter until season 4! I can't wait to start on the next season as the beginning is my favorite out of all the seasons. If you enjoyed this chapter, please leave a vote, comment and add this book to your reading list to stay updated. I'll see you soon!

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