*****Flashback to when Lea tried to hang herself***
Lea's POV
'This is it.' I thought. 'I'm going to be happy. I'm going to make everyone happy. I'm making the right decision for the first time in my life..' I was crying earlier and I looked at the fresh new cuts on my wrist. I cried and sobbed. I tied the rope on my ceiling fan. The curtains were wide opened with the windows opened. I felt the cold air linger on my skin. I wrote my suicide note which was basically just a poem.
"I don't care", I say as my feelings get hurt
"I don't care", I say as a tear slowly drips down my face
"I don't care", I say as I cut my wrists and thighs
"I don't care", I say as I lose everyone
"I don't care", I say when I put the rope around my neck
"I don't care", I say as my last breath exhaled
I taped that on the front of my shirt. I put the noose over my neck. I was standing on a stool.
I jumped and immediately kicked the stool away from me. My vision was getting blurry, I saw someone outside the window. 'The last person I will ever see is that stranger.' I closed my eyes and I became unconscious. Everything went black.
I opened my eyes again to see a bright light. I saw Annabelle. I cried of joy and hugged her. She hugged me tightly with tears.
"Nous pouvons être ensemble Annabelle !! Je ai mal depuis si longtemps. Je ai attendu pour vous. Je te aime tellement que je vous manqué .. Personne ne me aime. Mais je suis ici maintenant." I cried.
Translations: ( We can be together Annabelle!! I've been hurting for so so long. I have been waiting for you. I love you so much I missed you.. No one loves me. But I'm here now.)
" Lea .. Ma belle Leanna. Je suis tellement désolé. Je te aime Je te tellement manqué. Je suis tellement désolé Pookie .. Vous ne pouvez pas rester. Vous devez revenir en arrière. Vous devez vivre. Il ya quelqu'un là-bas qui a besoin de vous. Quelqu'un que je regardais plus" Annabelle said through tears.
Translations: ( Lea.. My beautiful Leanna. I missed you so. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry I wasn't there. I love you. I missed you so much. But.. You can't stay. There's someone out there. Someone who cares about you and loves you)
"No... No no Annabelle.. Please don't do this to me.. I found happiness with you don't do this. Please!!!" I cried when she began to fade away.
" Je te aime Leanna." Her last words to me was 'I love you' in our native language. Her arms reached out to me as I tried to grab her but didn't succeed. I fell back into reality.
"And then I woke up in the hospital.." I say to Bruno. I sigh. "I wish that person who saw me hang myself didn't do anything. I saw my sister. Annabelle. She's the only one who loved me. I was happy. Why did they save me?! I'm alive but at what cost?!" I yell and began to cry. I look over at Bruno and I see him with wet eyes and clenched fists and teeth. I looked at him. "What's wrong?" I gasped after a sob. I stopped crying. He then looked at me.
"I was the stranger who saw you hang yourself." He finally said seconds after of complete, total silence.
My eyes widen and I can feel my heart beat through my head. My head was pounding from shock. I stumbled out of the bed. I had my left hand over my mouth. I began to hyperventilate. I didn't know why he did that. Why did he save me? Why... Why would he take away my happiness? ... I bring my knees to my chest and began to rock back and forth on and off the wall. I was shaking I didn't know why. He walks over to comfort me by reaching a hand out, but I hit it away from me.
He looked at me with pain in his eyes. I hide my face with my hands and began to cry heavily. I wailed and moaned. He doesn't care about me.. All he wanted to be was the fucking hero. I began to hold my head between my tear soaked hands. I scream and cried. I cried and cried. Why.. Why would this happen to me? I began to shake even more now. I was hyperventilating through tears and sobs.
I couldn't stop shaking. Bruno tried to hold me but I jerked him off of my shoulder. I gasped and put my hands above my heart. My heart ached. My heart ached for my Annabelle. I shake my head and continued to cry. I thought about all the memories with her. When she got me a $50 dollar teddy bear. It was so big. I would cuddle with it every night. I once baked her a cake. It was a disaster. The cake was burnt to a crisp and the kitchen was a mess. She ate a slice of cake. She ate it happily and gave me praise. I miss her so much. I miss her, so so much. Why am I still here?
Bruno's POV
"Lea I'm sorry.. I was on a walk and I heard a weird gurgling noise. I looked over and saw you. I came in through the window and put you on my shoulders. I maneuvered the rope on your neck and untied you. You were already unconscious and I carried you bridal style to the hospital. I ran. I ran so hard until I couldn't feel my legs. I'm sorry Lea I'm so sorry. Please don't be mad at me. I love you.."
I tried to hold her. She jerked me off her shoulder and I had a pained look in my eyes. I sigh and sat down next to her. I look up at the ceiling and covered my eyes with my hands. I began to cry. Tears formed after she pushed me off. Tears slowly streamed down my face. I couldn't hold it in much longer. I took a shaky breath in and out. I didn't care anymore and I just let my feelings out. I softly cried. It eventually turned into sobs. Big, nasty sobs. I groaned and sobbed. I crossed my arms on my knees. I shake my head. Should I have let her die?? She would've been happy. I look over at Lea. My beautiful Lea was crying.. Because of me. I look down and continued to cry. The officer gave me a sad look then continued to play on his phone.
"Annabelle... *sob* Annabelle.. *hick* *hick* Annabelle..." Lea sobbed. " Annabelle ... Je veux vous voir. Je veux entendre votre voix. Je veux que vous me entendre chanter des berceuses français. Je veux que vous me disiez lit des histoires de temps. I .. Je veux vos bras autour de moi. Je veux que tu sois avec moi. Se il vous plaît Annabelle.. Annabelle." She whispered in French.
Translations:
Annabelle... I want to see you. I want to hear your voice. I want you to sing me French lullabies. I want you to tell me bed time stories. I.. I want your arms around me. I want you to be with me. Please Annabelle.. Annabelle.
A nurse came in and told us Lea could leave in 20 minutes.
*timeskip sorry*
Lea had to go to her own house. It was orders to let her parent or legal guardian know she's out of the hospital. ((I don't even know if that's true tbh))
Lea's POV
I was finally home. I went over to the bathroom and took a shower. I dried my hair and went back to my room. I dressed very nicely. I was wearing the dress I wanted to be buried in. I walked over to my bathroom again. I took out my razor blades. I cut my forearms, I carved Bruno's name on my left and Annabelle's name on my right.
I went back to my room and pulled out the rope. I tied the rope on my ceiling light. I made a noose. I got a text on my phone. It was from Bruno. It said, "when will you be coming out love?" I replied, "give me 15 min. I love you so much. You have no idea I love you so so much." He replied back, "I love you too baby I love you so much. You are my first and last love forever and ever!" I smiled at the text. Tears fell onto my screen. I put the noose over my neck.
