Mine || JohnHyuck - Markhyuck

Thirteen

"It's fine." Donghyuck whispered to himself, staring at his reflection in the mirror with a worried and nervous expression. He brought his fingers to his mouth, biting at his nails unconsciously as he started to pace the small bathroom.

"It was just a forehead kiss." Donghyuck said, nodding slowly. It was a platonic kiss. Nothing about it should be weird. They were just two friends after all.

As he was trying his best to convince himself everything was fine, and that it was nothing, a soft knock came from the door, startling Donghyuck. "Are you done in there? I need to take a shower." Doyoung said, sounding tired than ever.

"Uh... hold on!" Donghyuck said quickly. He quickly finished his morning routine as fast as he could to not keep the elder waiting any longer. Once he opened the door, he saw Doyoung standing there half away.

He gave him a small smile, before walking past him, and down the hall, making his way to the living room. He didn't want to go back to his room, because Johnny was back, and he wasn't sure if he had the guts to look him in the eyes just yet.

But he knew at some point, he would have to talk to him.

The day went by rather quickly. Doyoung made breakfast for the two, (Johnny saying he wasn't hungry) then he finished two movies by himself. He went out for lunch with Renjun and Chenle, then when dinner came rolling around, he just decided on ordering because he was too lazy to actually cook something.

He somehow managed to avoid Johnny and Mark the whole day. Which gave him time to gather his thoughts and emotions. Even though it was still a clump of mess, he's gain the courage to finally talk to Johnny for the first time in days.

"I'm sorry." Donghyuck said when he walked into the room. He stood by the doorway, feeling rather odd being there. He looked to Johnny, who was sitting on his chair, facing his computer.

It took a second before Johnny finally turned around. And for some reason, Donghyuck felt this feeling inside of him. Guilt? Shame? Whatever it was, it definitely wasn't a nice feeling. He hated it.

Johnny didn't say anything. Just stared at Donghyuck. It made the boy feel small and vulnerable, like he was some sort of bad guy who was about to lose in a fight.

"Say something..." Donghyuck pouted, wanting to just curl up and ignore him all over again. It took him all day to gather all this courage to even come here, and Johnny wasn't even saying anything.

"What are you sorry for exactly?" Johnny asked in a soft voice. He didn't seem to be mad nor annoyed, which was a good thing in the younger's eyes. But there was still this tension in the room, and Donghyuck hated it.

The boy walked over to his own bed, sitting on it carefully. "A lot of things." Donghyuck sighed, staring at the wall in front of him, counting all the small details he finds in his head. "Like how I've been ignoring you," he swallows.

"Or how I've been acting lately." Donghyuck whispers, looking down to his hands. He fiddled with his fingers.

Johnny didn't say anything, which bothered Donghyuck.

Is he mad at me?

Johnny got up from the chair, and made his way to the boy, who was still playing with his hands. He sat in front of the boy, and grabbed his hands. "What's wrong?" He asked the younger in a gentle voice, which made Donghyuck choke out a sob. He didn't understand why that question made him cry, or why he felt sad all of a sudden.

Johnny frowned, bringing the boy into his arms, hugging him closely. Donghyuck immediately wrapped his arms around Johnny's waist, resting his forehead on his shoulder, letting out all his emotions he didn't seem to understand.

"I'm sorry Johnny," Donghyuck cried. He could feel Johnny hugging him tighter, patting his back lightly to try and soothe him. "I don't know what's wrong with me." Donghyuck said through soft cries.

All Johnny could do was hug the boy, comfort him to the best of his abilities.

After what seemed to be forever of what really was only a couple of minutes, Donghyuck finally calmed down, only little sniffles coming out of his mouth every few seconds. His eyes were red and puffy, while his face was a bit red from having his face against the warmth of Johnny's now wet tshirt.

"Want to sleep? You look exhausted." Johnny said with a calm and soothing voice. He brought his hand up to brush the boys hair out of his face, running his fingers through his brown fluffy hair.

Donghyuck shook his head, wiping his eyes with the sleeves of his hoodie. He looked at Johnny's chest, not wanting to make direct eye contact with the older, especially not when he had just finished crying for absolutely no reason.

"I wanted to talk to you... about me being a shitty boyfriend lately." Donghyuck whispered, feel embarrassed. As much as he didn't want to admit it, he's been a pretty terrible boyfriend lately.

Johnny didn't say anything, not knowing what he should say in the situation they were in. Because as much as he wanted to comfort the boy and tell him he hasn't been one, he also didn't want to lie to him. Because, quite frankly, Donghyuck hasn't been the best boyfriend these days.

"We can talk tomorrow if you want-"

Donghyuck cut him off with a shake of the head. "No, because I know I'll just try and avoid it again." He sighed.

The room grew quiet.

"I have a question," Johnny said, looking to Donghyuck with a serious expression. "Can you answer honestly for me?"

Donghyuck stared at him for a good 5 seconds, before nodding slowly.

"Do you still like Mark?" His voice sounded small, and a hint of hurt. It felt like a punch was blown at Donghyuck, right in the guts.

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"Boo!" A loud, sudden shout came from beside the spaced out boy. It startled him, but he quickly recovered when he saw the smiley boy laughing.

Donghyuck smiled softly.

"Did you play games all night?" Chenle asked, shoving his shoulders against the elders playfully, a teasing smirk playing on his lips.

"Yes. I played all night." Donghyuck said jokingly, shaking his head. Chenle only laughed, before getting up on his feet, and walked over to where Jisung and Jeno were going over some dance together, joining in on the mini lesson that was going on.

Donghyuck went back to spacing out, staring at the wall across the room, becoming familiar with the texture as the minutes pass by. The sounds of the dream members were the only thing keeping him from completely zoning out.

The day went by slowly, and all Donghyuck could think about was how he just wanted to sleep.

He doesn't know how he ended up in Taeil's bed at the end of the day, but he was there and he had no intentions of going back to his own bed.

"Can I sleep here?" Donghyuck asked in a whisper, his arms snaked around the elders waist as he rested his head on his shoulder, eyes getting heavier as the minutes pass by.

Donghyuck didn't get the chance to hear what Taeil said, because his body slowly fell into a deep dreamless slumber.