I dedicate this chapter to @Meromefan and @too_many_fandomsXD (message me :) )
Quick Authors Note, i started this off thinking no one would read this but here we are.. I KNOW i said id update before xmas, but i found myself being rushed to hospital 5 days before :( i was heavily drugged and ill :( so i couldn't update. But i was writing.
Now, onto the story.
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It's no secret that Dan wasn't the skinniest kid. It's no secret that Dan still wasn't confident. It is a secret that Dan thought it was his fault.
He stood infront of his mirror and pulled at his brunet hair, frowning when he noticed it was at it's curliest. All messy and crazy. With a sigh, he sat down at his desk and began to straighten his hair, burning his hand in the process. Not that he minded at this stage, he was in far too deep to care.
One by one, the curls disapeared, and the straighteners let out a hiss as they touched the Matte Final Touch Finish hair spray. Dan just stared at his reflection as he did so, not caring if he actually got a strand of hair or not, it wouldn't make a difference, this day was just like any other.
He'd get up, straighten his hair, get dressed, avoid breakfast, avoid Phil, then stalk tumblr until he decided to go to bed. Of course, he didn't go to sleep when he went to bed. He pulled out his box. His box was filled with things he could find escape with. With things he enjoyed. Things he'd loved since he was mearly 13.
Many people would say 13 was too young, that at that age, he shouldn't even have those things. Many people said that even now, he shouldn't have those things, that he'd regret it when he was older. But he never saw how he could. To him, this was how he wanted to be, he didn't care of what people thought of this. Only what people thought of him for doing this. Which is why he never told anyone that he did.
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It was after Phil had posted his video that he noticed Dan hadn't posted a video in 1 month. It wasn't like Dan was a spam when it came to posting, often he'd wait a few weeks, but 1 month was stretching it. Sighing, he closed the tab and looked at the camera. Phil shook his head before grabbing a postit note, and writing Film A Video Danyul! on it and sticking it onto the camera. He got up, and walked to Dan's bedroom. It was very quiet for a saturday afternoon.
Phil knocked on the door, waiting for an answer. He huffed under his breath before opening the door. Dan was laid on his bed, back turned to Phil, and headphones on his head - most likely blasting at full volume.
"DAN FOR GODS SAKES!" Phil yelled, making Dan jump and turn around. His face was pale and his eyes were empty, and almost black. The two had met a girl earlier that year, and she'd had black eyes. She said it was scientific. When a person was depressed but trying to act happy, they could just do it. Thinking back to the girl, Phil thought she was like a mixture of Dan and his child. She looked so much like Dan, and also like Phil, and acted like both of them.
Phil just sighed once more, forgetting the teenage girl, and threw the camera at Dan, who caught it quickly. He nodded towards the green postit note before walking out the room and into their office. Phil put his face into his hands and groaned and flopped onto the sofa. He had to do something. Things with Dan were getting out of hand.
He shook his head and stuffed his face into one of the red pillows. They were soft, and had many memories in them. Phil usually flopped on this sofa when he was stressed. It wasn't unusual. Phil groaned. He was worried about his best friend.
But no worries. Everything was fine.
Right?
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It was around 11pm when Phil heard Dan begin to talk to himself, or, more likely the camera. He just chuckled and began stalking tumblr again, but at the same listening in on Dan. He remembered when Dan used to film at his place, before they moved in together, Phil always sat behind the camera, making Dan laugh and smile.
No one knew that of course. No one would ever know that.
No one would ever know a lot of things, like how they deleted the Vegas video on purpose. Or how Phil sucks his thumb when he's nervous. They would never tell the public this obviously. It was private
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By the morning, Phil realised that he was still on the sofa with his head still in a pillow. He groaned before sitting up and cracking his back, cringing at the sound. Ignoring it, Phil shook his head and stood up, heading out of the office. His legs were stiff from sleeping in jeans but he kept walking until he reached the kitchen.
Flicking the light and the kettle on, Phil placed his head on the counter. His whole body was stiff from sleeping on the sofa, and he was sure that he wouldn't be able to move around a lot without squeaking from pain. He laughed at how this was similar to a few mornings that he and Dan experienced.
Exept the difference was, it was normally Dan in pain, and from a whole different reason. Phil laughed as the kettle flicked off. He grabbed two mugs and poured out tea for dan, and coffee for him.
Picking up the mugs, he headed to Dan's room, and sure enough, he was zonked out on his bed, the camera still set up, and the video half edited on his macbook.
Phil walked over and shook Dan awake. His eyes stared into Phil's before speaking up.
"Morning, Phil, what time is it?"
"Around 10? Maybe? I'm not sure... Here" Phil replied, giving Dan the tea. Dan thanked him before pointing to his calender on his wall. Phil walked over and saw,
Filming with Joe and Louise today!
Written on it. Phil groaned.
"Okaaaay" He dragged his body out the room and into his bathroom.
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After Phil had left to shower, Dan downed the cup of tea and began picking out his favourite outfit. It was the one that made him look the skinniest. He placed in on his bed before pulling out the box, and doing what he did every morning and night with it.
He placed it back and went to the shower, a sinking feeling in his stomach.
Something was going to go wrong.
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hai, so the 16th of January is my birthday, so i'm uploading this on the 15th so no morE streSS abOUT tHIS SToRy!
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