Falling In-love with a freak

Chapter One

So hear i am; lying hear, my bones ache with pain. My eyes scour the room. Black, all I can see is a empty black room as the aroma of damp dust filled my nose. Tap, tap, tap the noise of the water dripping into a mould stained bucket that I placed there after a leak busted through my roof... Again. The street lights pour some light against the Ivory wall across the room, the window on the latch letting the cold damp air from outside filled the oxygen around me. As a car goes past my house it's as if the room shakes. I take another glimpse at the clock on the wall silently ticking... 1:30am. It's times like this i truly feel alone, as if I'm the only one on this earth. I try and scream but no words come out, I try to cry but not tears pour out. Every day it's the same since the unspeakable happened. Everyday I'm tired but I can't sleep, I'm hungry but I can't eat. I find no motivation to even get out of bed anymore never mind try and put my life back together. I peer at the clock again, 1:32. This night is going to drag more than I thought. Deciding I wouldn't be getting any sleep tonight I sat up, twisted my body so I was facing the ivory cracked wall, a grunt escaped my bruised body. I swing my legs over the floor took one big breath and stood up. It was as if I have been hibernating for millions of years. It was as if all the bones in my exhausted body have cracked from underneath me, as if it had awoken from a life all balled up inside of it self. Hunched over in pain I grabbed the dressing table with all of my weight it was as if I put all my faith in it to keep me up as the room started spinning, black dots started to appear as the vintage dressing table fell with me as if it happened in slow motion the floor became closer and closer to my face. As soon as I hit the cold, oak wooden floor it was as if my skin ripped with the impact. Everything turned dark and cold, I thought it was finally the end of my suffering. I took a breath and closed me eyes not knowing if I would open them again.