Her Name Is D

HA! Foreshadowing!

I had gotten myself under control. But my eyes were red and puffy from crying.

I didn't want anyone to see me like this. So I undid my braids and did my hair kind like the woman from the 'Ring'.🧟‍♀️

I let it cover my eyes just enough. So nobody could see my eyes but I could see the people around me.

I sighed and stepped out of the truck with my recent purchases grasped in my hand.

I raced back to Olive's room and knocked on the door. It flung open and she snatched the bag from my hands.

Then she held her hand out and growled, " Change!"

I dropped the few dollars and coins into her hand. She clutched the money in a death grip and without even checking it, she slammed the door.

I was glad. Relieved really. I didn't want her my bandaged hand in my pocket. Or my red eyes and tear stains.😭

I got done with most of my chores earlier than I thought.

Oh, did I say most? Yeah, my chores are never really done until everyone's asleep. Which is why I hate the nights they gave parties or go out partying. I can't really relax or fall asleep until they do.

Sometimes they don't get home until five in the morning. Then I'd have to help their drunk asses to bed.

I'll admit I have thought about getting a silver knife and dragging it across their unguarded jugulars.🔪😀

What? Anyone in my situation would just be a tad, just a tad, homicidal.

It's perfectly normal... I hope. Hey, it's not like I'll end up in an insane asylum.
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I was cuddling Mash while reading a book I had stashed in my mattress. My bed was basically hollow shreds when I got it. So it's perfect for stashing stuff.

We were reading 'The Girl Who Could Fly'.

It was about a girl named Piper McCloud who realized she had the ability to fly. Then she's shipped off to a mysterious facility for kids with amazing powers.

They say they're good. But are they?

I love it! I've read it six times!

Mash sat in my lap as I read it to her. We had gotten to the part where she's learning to fly.

I stopped at the last period and looked down at Mash.

She looked up at me and did this cute little head tilt.

Mash never flew. She only climbed with her little talons.

I'm pretty sure of it's because of what happened when she was a chick. But from what I know she looks healthy.

And I've just kept her down her here for most of her life. Was I being selfish?

I always knew deep down that if Mash were to fly away. She would probably never come back.

I'd have nobody then.

I would have killed myself long ago without her. 😵

But I bet she misses it. In fact, she wants it. The great sea in the sky, the fresh air, the food.

But I also domesticated her. So she'd probably never survive.

I just can't stop this... this-. Dread. This panic, this fear. It's like it squirmed in through my spine. Then it swelled into this big balloon pressing, kicking - against my heart.

It felt like I was ready to spew my stomach's bile.

Mash tapped against my foot with her talon. Then she knocked her beak against the book.

"Mash? Do you ever want to fly?"

She made a confused cheep and tilted her head the other way.

" I mean-. It's okay if you do. If you want to wanna be free then-,   I don't want to stop you."

Mash hopped angrily and started to tweet angrily. 😡

I was a little girl worried she would wear herself out. She was going on nonstop.

She even flapped her wings furiously.

If she could speak I'd be thoroughly cussed out.

" Okay, okay. I'm sorry."

She flapped angrily again then she turned her back to me.

She was pouting.

I tried to caress her head but she avoided my hand.

" Mash... I'm sorry. Please? I just... can't help but wonder if I'm being selfish. You know, I want you to fly free.

And you can't do that when you're trapped here with me."

My crybaby ass didn't seem to run out of tears. Even after my breakdown in the car.

Mash turned around and hopped closer to my stomach.

She nuzzled against my shirt rubbing her head against my injured hand that I still kept in my pocket.

She cooed as she tried to comfort me.

It was working.

" I love you too Mashy."

I picked her up with my good hand and placed her on my shoulder.

She chirped cheerfully and rubbed against my cheek. She's so fluffy.

She moved around a bit before settling her self down.

She turned to me and made a peep and leaning her head to the book.

I laughed a little.

"Ha. Okay, okay. Now, where were we?"

I picked the book up again and found my place.

As I started to read, Mash made a home on my shoulder.

I glanced at her.

I hope we're here for a long time. Just Mash and me. Friends till the end.

We won't be separated anytime soon.